Disconnected: I like interacting with other people. The more, the better. At least in theory. In reality I mostly find it tiresome and uncomfortable, if not plain scary.
I recognise the need to get away from other people, but I'm no introvert. I need other people just as much as I need oxygen. It's simply that interacting with most people makes me feel like a hen in a fox house.
In my very own, highly reliable opinion, I'm not the one lacking in social skills. Other people are. But it would seem the world in general disagrees. I've tried to indulge the world and do something about my social skills in various ways. Generally with funny-in-hindsight results, but little else.
I wish I knew what the problem is, but I don't. I think perhaps there's a gaping maw of awkwardness between my expectations of people and vice versa. But that's about as exact as I know how to get. Possibly I should have studied behavioural psychology instead of mathematics.
The closest I've come to coping with it, has been working abroad. Which I've done more than half my life for just that reason.
Still, it might be some small consolation for Aliasalpha to hear that it hasn't prevented me from getting married, to a geophysicist who's a great deal smarter than I am ;)
From what I believe, people get together because of a commonness in something. Whoever says opposites attract is an ignorant ignoramus. I often feel the same way as you do. I can interact with people. I had a whopping 21st birthday party, with most of my better acquainted friends, about 30 in total, turning up. The problem is, out of these "friends", I really only trust about 5 of them, and I'm convinced it's something to do with people having natural masks on them that really hide their true colours.
I have a good sense of people's appearances. While one would say "judge not a book by its cover", that's precisely what I'm good at doing, and often am accurate in it too. By a person's smile, voice and facial features, I can predict what kind of person he is - backstabber, badmouther, manipulator, good friend, introvert etc. And more often than not, most of the people I see have their own agenda. Some tend to follow the crowd, going where the wind blows. Then there are some who have their own hidden intents on being your friend - as malicious as this statement may sound, it may not actually be; but that doesn't cover the fact that there's more than just the surface.
It's also for this very reason that I'm very wary of trusting people too much, and therefore sometimes prefer to seclude myself from congregations. There's no sense of belonging to a group of people whom I feel are better suited as potential business clients than mountain-climbing buddies. I can talk to them, make them interested in what I have to say; I can make them laugh with me, make the girls start hitting me; but, as a group, I just don't have the sense of connection that I really feel with my true friends whom I've known for a decade already.
Therefore, you are right and I agree with the part about "I'm not the one lacking in social skills. Other people are." I am a friendly, welcoming person by nature, though I sometimes look fierce. What compels me to distance myself from others is that already, the mask is up on everybody's faces, so that puts me on my guard. And, my sixth sense instincts tell me that nothing good's going to come out when the masks are let down. It's not my fault that people behave like weirdos, like acting playful but going a bit too overboard or striking a wrong chord with me. I know they are trying to create a rapport between both of us, but it's not my fault that they are failing hard, and causing myself to want to create distance.
That's one of the main explanations I have for accounting for my preference to isolate myself at times. I'm not sure if you feel the same way, but yeah...
Man this group therapy session is awesome.