Finding the courage to ask for help to acquire the necessary funds to fly to see my grandfather who is about to leave this life. I struggle to ask others for help, or accept it, due to my experiences with others this lifetime, so I try to be as self-sufficient as I can be, given my limitations.
I realised that rent, debts and other bills can wait, because time is fleeting, as is life, and I am glad that I now have the chance for a farewell and to be there for him if he needs me. I can't express in this moment how much this man means to me, and how much his love and teachings have given me the balance and direction in life to share the more positive aspects of myself. He is strength personified. He is the hardest man that I have met(his handgrip strength is stronger than almost everyone I have met, and he is almost 98!!), who has survived more adversity than any other I shared stories with. And through all of this adversity, and the hurt that he has passed onto others(something that I can relate to), he softened as he aged, did his best to atone for the hurt he passed on, and gave me faith in the redemption of humanity, of myself, and best of all, showed me much needed love.
I fly to see him in 2 days time, and even if he dies before then, at least I tried everything I could to do what I felt was right.