I don't understand the article very much, and while I don't have most of the symptoms, the fact that I seem to have a number of them is rather disconcerting. I haven't really been to a doctor (unless you count the psychological drug quackery they subjected me to) in about two decades, and I've never seen a dentist.

My illness has been making it increasingly difficult to play games over the last few months, and I was very upset when I simply had to force myself to stop playing Black Mesa, and I've given up on playing any games for the last few days, and may have little choice but to extend that to weeks or months. I get dizzy and nervous, I feel somewhat like I'm out of body.

One of the most distressing symptoms is a nervous habit I've developed over the last year or so, that has become increasingly worse to the point where it is almost unbearable, and I have become increasingly conscious of it. I have a compulsion to apply pressure to my face at all times, often with the need to keep one of my eyes covered or it's peripheral vision blocked as well. Usually with one of my hands, sometimes with a cloth, shirt, hat, pillow, etc. For years, I have suffered from occasional dizziness, and covering one of my eyes would alleviate that for some reason. Now it's become less effective and a compulsive habit.

I can't begin to imagine what this could mean or what it is a symptom of, and I've had no luck researching it myself. Much as I hate to think so, it may be related to my computer use, though I do attempt to regulate it and take regular breaks. I noticed this problem about the time I hit puberty, but it was never quite as severe as it is now. The psychologists and doctors at the time dismissed it entirely. Now it's almost impossible to keep my hand away from my face.

I quickly become conscious of it now, physically force my arms behind my back, but it's become a consuming madness like an addiction of sorts, and I begin to sweat, shake, panic, and eventually give in after a few seconds. I can't seem to fight it anymore, my willpower has been utterly shattered. Doing anything two-handedly has become extremely trying. Needless to say, it's been eating away at me and my will to live.

I should probably see a doctor, yes, but I fear the same dismissal I had after years of being ignored during my teenage years, more psychological drugs that often made things worse and even caused years of harm, I don't think I could possibly afford it, and frankly, I wouldn't know the first step to approaching this problem. I'm not sure seeing a doctor is a viable option. I hate to derail this topic like this, but you seem willing to help and I'm not sure how long I can keep ignoring this and pretending it'll get better on it's own. I'd really appreciate some non-professional advice, some kind of lead as to what this is and what I can do.

I was bullied for a while in school but usually a lot of people stopped bullying me when I threatened them. Im telling you, the best way of defeating someone is to make them fearful and bring it into their court. Using fear against someone usually not as smart as you is very worthwhile. And if they try and make it a group event where you will fight them, deny it and challenge them at your house or their house. Most bullies are pussies and will not go along with it. If you are too small or not strong enough to fend off them, bring a baseball bat and mess them up.

I know this might sound crazy but it worked for me when I wasn't able to be charismatic. Highschool is a crazy place but you cannot allow them to think you are weak.

Of what I have experienced of High School.. There is not much bullying that I see.. Mostly just high school drama...

Actually I have Hypothryoidism (also known as Hashimoto's Disease), and it can't be cured. It is supplimented by synthetic hormone called Levothyroxin/Althroxin. And taking a small pill every day is a small price to pay compared to how horrible a death you can get from it. It's weird because I am a male, and males are commonly known for getting Grave's Disease not Hashimoto's Disease. Also, I have no family members pre-disposed to the condition (as my mother only has it due to her thyroid being nuked due to extreme Hyperthyroidism). It's a lot more serious a condition than people give it credit for, much like how people under estimate Asthma (which I am unfortunately stuck with as well).

Isn't hashimoto's disease one of the causes, and not a synonym? (and incurable)
i meant if you don't take medicine (that is, synthetic hormones). untreated, yeah, that's the word :)
although, from what I've read, there are people who after some time didn't need the hormones anymore. i suppose it depends on how you get it and how severe it is.

p.s. skunk, pm

Well...it is more or less, however it is the most common cause of hypothyroidism and generally the two terms get intermixed. At least, that is in my experience, but don't quote me on that. Yeah, untreated is the proper word for it :). Well in rare cases the thyroid becomes stronger, but it is almost unheard of actually happening. In the case of my mother (who's thyroid was nuked to avoid her heart going "splody") that isn't a possibility, and in my case my throid COULD but it is VERY unlikely. For me, it is so weak stopping my meds would eventually cause me to die...a fate I'm not keen on. :P

WTF is the world coming to, the corrupted are living in luxury while the confused misunderstood pay

Just reading R. Rhodes book on Einsastzgruppen, citing a study by criminologist Lonnie Athens about violent socialization hypothesis, studying on those who respond with stage 4) "virulency", or criminal, aggressive violence.

The cycle in full is: 1) brutalization; 2) belligrency; 3) violent performances; 4) virulency. Athens observers: "Brutalization is an odious and traumatic experience."

Quotation: "Suicide and violence are inversly correlated in specific populations, for example, suggesting that suicide is an alternative outcome to resolving the conflicts that brutalization presents."

"Expressed differently, his problem is to find a way to reorganize himself into someone who can successfully survive further encounters with the kind of traumatic experience that has shattered his former identity."

(Richard Rhodes: Masters of Death p. 19-27)

Wasn't this the girl who slept with another girl's boyfriend, willingly flashed a man online, and got beat up for those actions? What the fuck did you expect?
Sorry if that made me sound like an ass, but a lot of people bring this shit on themselves.

Cyber bullying and cuicide are, in a sense, out of proportion, should one compare them with brutality of Second World War.

Yet the "brutalization" process Athens cum Rhodes observes I do think is necessary to shatter self esteem and sense of self of a school girl or boy, outside clincal depression, to drive them to suicide.

Whether a given person has flahsed something of their body on the internet - which might be highly embarassing in hindsight - the cruelty to pick on it, and the out of proportion desparation and friendlessness of the suicidee in hindsight, is very tangibly tragic indeed.

As to parents, peers ie school mates, friends, teachers of those who brutalized someone to death or who know the victims - was there nothing you could do? edit: spelling

She should of known better but that doesn't mean bullying people is acceptable behavior.

The world is an effed up place, no doubt.

Agreed.

May she rest in peace. While she may have made a huge mistake, she did not deserve the torment. Nobody deserves this. A shame her parents didn't get her to delete her FB profile.

I don't believe kids should be allowed to join social networking sites, but since that is not to be they should be at least taught how to use them responsibly. The internet never forgets or forgives.

The Illuminati criminal thugs DO set them selves up in Luxury while WE THE PEOPLE pay the ULTIMATE SACRIFICE!!!