orcishgamer: Holy shit man, I'm really sorry. No one ignites themselves in their right mind, even if they do want to die. I hope you speak to someone regularly to work out those demons, no one can deal with that crap on their own, afaik.
No , but you see , already back then , before any of this I had been a social outcast for more than ten years (living through nightmares you wouldn't believe) , so when my father did that "stunt" I were already totally and utterly derailed from society (all because that I were too intelligent and people had hurt me and hunted me because of that already back then) , so when my father finally did that "stunt" I had no social network except for my mother and siblings , and I tell you none of us never got any real "problem solving help" what so ever.....
It is true when people says that "the truth is ill heard of".....
And also my country were like the inventor of the "Jante law" .
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jante_law I were abused so much in school that they have mislaid my school papers and they can apparantly not be found anymore.....
Also I should have skipped grade(s) in school but were not allowed to because of fear that it would create even more problems.......
So you see I have had to deal with this for decades by myself, plus whatever people have done towards me since that (and that is not just a little)......
(How else do you think that people like me becomes what we are... ? )