Posted November 27, 2015
HereForTheBeer: From your other posts it sounds like you're doing good and useful things for your community, all the while dealing with your own difficulties. Anybody can roll over and let life smack them around. Not just everybody will take the hits and keep on trying. So I salute you for that.
Thanks, I do indeed tend to get up and struggle again. The thing that 'struck me down' so to speak was the news of Saudi Arabia planning 50 beheadings today, allegedly for terrorists, but crimes might also include completely innocent things like being homosexual, blogging things the goverment doesn't like or owning marihuana. It really got me pissed off. But I went walking with a friend like I do every friday, ordered some real Dutch peas soup with (organic) smoked sausage and I could forget about it for a while. Talking about what cover to use to attach my upcoming Fairphone 2 to my belt also delivered some distraction.
I hope people don't read me being tired of life as an alarming accurate risk of suicide, as it isn't. Suicide will probably remain just wishful thinking until I die of natural causes, as I have enough reasons to continue, like enjoying my work, enjoying my games and enjoying my family, not the least of which half a dozen small nephews and nieces. But sometimes the injustices of the world do make me very tired.
Thank you. For me it will be Baldur's Gate or Path of Exile that helps me forget, as an ex-addict I have experienced how being addicted to even soft-drugs can wreak havoc with your life (especially if your mind is susceptible to psychosis), but I appreciate the intention behind the thought.
Post edited November 27, 2015 by DubConqueror