ok whatever. deleted?

You should go on reddit, they have lots of subreddits for every kind of saddo where people can tell their life stories and commiserate with each other.
This forum on the other hand isn't really appropriate for it.

Is this for real? Cause this feels like a good joke.

You need to get professional help from a psychologist. An internet forum is not a psychologist.

If you're self aware enough to call yourself a "pervert and jerk, troll, hater," yet see no reason to change that behaviour than it shouldn't be surprising that people aren't interested in associating with you. I'm not trying to be mean by saying that, but it seems to me that if you're aware of those traits and don't view them as things that require correction than you may benefit from some form of counselling or life coaching or something. Those are abnormal, anti-social traits that don't work well for people in the real world.

Cio,

If you remember the last time we talked in pm

I strongly suggested that you try something to seek some professional help.
The Internet cannot and will NOT help you with your problems.

You need to reach out to someone you trust and get a psychologist to take a look at you.

I wish I could help you, but my knowledge of Romania's mental health services is non existent.

Please do it man, and soon.

Well, there is your problem. And if you managed to alienate even GameRager, it must be really bad. I'll repeat what others have said: get help. Change. If you are at odds with the entire world, it might be time to adapt.

as someone who suffers daily with real mental health issues i find this insulting and some of the replies also, some people are right saying that this isnt the place for personal issues, if you truly need or want help you have to convince yourself first not other people, and seek a therapist/doctor and stuff, many users icluding myself have issues, broadcasting them over the internet is the worst thing to do,

if your i nthe UK u can call 111 for medical advice and help, if you need someone to talk to yo ucan cal lsamaritans on 116 123 both these numbers are free and confidential, if your not from UK look for your countrys equivelent :)

He lives in Romania, which doesn't have such services iirc.

so do i get banned again?.. because i always keep having personal problems? i never heard voices, i don't get impressions that i'm being watched which means i'm not paranoic, i don't think i got multiple personalities except when i err?.. when i talk weird - when i troll... i don't have compulsive obsessive whatever, my memory is normal so i can remember phone numbers and such - this means i shouldn't be autist or asperger, alzheimer.. or demented. what else - i was never good at algebra or numerical math when i have to learn about polynoms, functions, integrals, derivates, etc. but i can do mental calculations like normal person?.. so this means i don't have dyscalculia or dyslexia? did i forget something?.. what is my mental problem, it has to have a name, an identification form..

Based on what you've said I'd go with anti-social behavioural disorder, or just a general personality disorder. Of crouse, that's not really possible to diagnose via a couple of forum messages.... just the closest thing that comes to mind.

For one... a reading / listening comprehension issue?

so this first thing - the anti social behavior. does this mean i should hate everybody without any reason, never try to have friends even on internet or how does it work..... and what about general personality disorder. do these things get worse in time?.. f*** my a**
ok i think i'll better shut up now. ban or no ban, it's better to leave quietly while i still can..

It doesn't mean you should hate people without reason. It's characterized by a general lack of regard for social norms or the feelings of others. That's not hating people, it's lacking empathy.

That being said there are several causes of these personality disorders, some of them actually physical, treatable things. Like hormone imbalances and thyroid problems.

Whether or not they get worse with time is hard to gauge without a professional providing treatment. They don't necessarily change or get worse, but they can present differently depending on a number of things. They can get worse, that really depends on the person and the circumstances.

I am not an expert on these things, I only know a bit about it because my wife is.

If it makes you feel any better, I don't see the mods banning you for asking for help with mental health issues. I don't think you need to worry about that.

but umm.. man.. on steam i always try to watch my mouth, i never complained there about my problems? steam has cheerful happy people as i told game rager too and i appreciate when they sometimes talk nice to me too. today someone marked an answer of mine as sollution to question about difference between cs go and cs 1.6. of course i'd still like to open my mouth and let it all out, but i refrain in such cases.. also on steam i never got banned yet and if i'd get banned even once, if i stir problems, then people will remember me forever most likely - like it happens here. but i guess u could still be right in the end.... as for my thyroid, i heard about that before. i heard that people either get weakness to warm or cold weather. idk i never had air conditioner in this house so when it's summer, it's hot. when it's winter, i have thermal thing with hot water which heats the house... i got no more ideas beyond this.. but yes, u might be right........ idk...