Hawk52: http://thatguywiththeglasses.com/videolinks/thatguywiththeglasses/nostalgia-critic/42100-in-loving-memory-of-justin-carmical Here's a tribute video, if you haven't seen it.
I suffer from severe depression, but this could have very easily been me a few years back. Obviously not the fame part, but no one knew I was depressed. No one knew what I was suffering through or what I was doing to myself every single day. I put on a mask, covering myself up in false niceties to tell everyone I was okay, that nothing was wrong. When in truth, I'd lay in bed and cry about how much I hated myself and how I didn't deserve to exist. No one would have known why I killed myself, everyone would have thought I was a happy, normal, if shut in person.
When I finally did reveal my depression and how severe it was, I was met with a lot of skepticism, and "You don't have depression" or "depression isn't a real thing". I still face that sometimes. But I'm still trying to get help and to "fix" myself. I don't feel like I've made much progress, but I'm trying. And there are days when the pills don't help, and I want to just give up on everything.
So, before you judge someone for their decision making in this situation; consider that unless you've lived with depression or you've studied it clinically; you can't understand it. You just can't. And virtually anyone with training will tell you that, unless you are medically trained to understand depression it's impossible to comprehend because the brain isn't functioning correctly.
By all accounts Justin Carmical was a good person who let his demons overwhelm him. Anyone can give in to their demons. So before you call him things or come into a thread honoring him by those who feel deeply troubled by what happened, look yourself in the mirror and realize that you yourself could one day fall into the same pit and sometimes you just can't crawl out.
never mind. I don't want ask.