Hey, everyone!

Some of you know me a little. Some of you know me very little. A few of you know me a bit more than that.

If you read this, you'll know me a bit more.

My partner has PTSD, anxiety, and depression. Really badly. We've been doing what we can to combat it and try and heal her, and well, it's a hard world to be in for some people, and she is one of them. She had an extreme PTSD episode about a week and a half ago and has gone on vacation to get away from all the stress and the incoming winter (the incoming winter is a huge issue, always, but the rest of life had become too much despite the weather.)

Part of her needing to get away from it all includes severing all contact with me. It's just too stressful to hear about things for her, to have me in the forefront of her mind distracts her focus from healing. I understand it, but it's really hard. We've got 2 sick ferrets and cats that are missing her like crazy and another ferret that is her special boy (who looks at me with eyes wondering where his mommy is to play with him - this is how bad things are, she knows that is how he'd be if she left, and it hurts her to know that, but she still HAD to leave), and me, missing her too...

We both know she needs to be elsewhere for any chance she can to get better, so, I'm here alone. My life is completely changed but I still am attempting to do the same things. And I don't know really where she is or what she is doing. She's in florida, with people I don't know who I can't be in contact with, and I don't know if when I'll hear from her. It could be months. It could be never. If what she needs is to start a completely new life for a chance of happiness, that is what I want for her and will be happy. but...

It's hard.

Today I woke up, missing her as I have been, really pretty down. The shock of the episode has worn off and now I'm just in traumatized recovery mode. So I woke up and did a couple things that needed done and try not to let sadness get too heavy too fast (it's good and healing to allow the sadness though, but I've got to temper it.)

And so I came to GOG.

Everyone, this community is special!!!!!!!! It has amazing and special people in it. Never doubt it.

I came to find PMs in my inbox from an extremely kind and generous person, not only making a giving gesture to me which means a lot, but they showed they care about things about me (about who and how I am and what I do.) Completely private and genuine, and really really special because it was just them and me. It made me feel good. I needed to feel good. Incredible and awesome!!

Please, person, forgive me for sharing this if you wished to not be heard about even to this degree, but I very much wanted to share what you did and how it affected me today.

Love and warmth need to be spread through this world. This helps that.

Thank you again, person! and

Thank you, GOG community,

for being there not just for fun distraction, but as a real community in the true sense of the word, despite all the hooooey that goes on here.

I love you all.

Wow, I never quite get why people feel the need to share stuff like this with complete strangers but if it makes you feel better.
I'm also not sure what I'm supposed to say to something like this.. commiserations?

I'll share my view!

It's not about making me feel better. Not at all. I already feel better (which is kind of the whole point.) It's about spreading that feeling to others. That someone made someone feel good makes me feel good when I hear about it even when I am not directly involved. It shows that people care and are good, which I know on an individual level because of what happened, and others know on individual levels in their lives, but when it gets brought to a communal consciousness, it spreads the good, for me anyway, that is what I see and feel.

A warming of the cockles of the heart. That is good to share.

Quite a read.

I wish you and your partner all the best!

Thank you for sharing that with us. It's a tremendous blessing to know that we've been a positive and supportive influence in your life. We're all pulling for you!

It's good to hear something good for a change. I hope your partner will find the healing she needs, even though learning to deal with life, with depression and anxiety is usually more of a reality than it going away completely. I hope she's found a good place to recover. For you it's the acceptance of being alone for the time being, but I'm glad you found warmth here. To me, your story about the PM you got is a warming story.

Sometimes it's little things. Today a day in which I felt anxious and stressed by the stormy weather, I felt better when I went outside and could help a stranger, who was trying to read a map in the wind, to find his way.

If you really want to know what she is doing and with whom, you can always hire a private investigator (PI).

They are actually very good and discreet in finding valuable information on others.

My co-worker's wife also went on a vacation to "find herself" to Jamaica. He hired a PI to see whats up.

The pictures and videos he got from the PI were sad. His wife had gone full bad girl mode with other men.

Don't torture yourself, try to move on.

This community does have great people in it, and we shouldn't let a few people ruin that for the majority.
Thanks to everyone who has had a positive impact on this site. <3

Post-traumatic stress disorder.
Recurring stress over a traumatic event. You typically hear about it in relation to soldiers who survived the horrors of war, although it can occur for other tragedies, too.

Please believe that I am trying to send my kindest thoughts to you both.
I am glad to see that some people see the good in here. Thank you for sharing that.

There is a related condition called Complex PTSD that occurs when a person is exposed to repeated or continuous trauma. This includes things like growing up with abusive parents or being sent to concentration/internment camps.

Not exactly sure what to say, but hoping things work out well for both of you, even if they take time.

Because privacy is dead. Everybody is whoring their private life out to the world, be it in forums, Twitter, Facebook or wherever and most of the time it is because they are attention whores. They want their 5 minutes of fame where finally, some people talk about them.