PalioDeMonte: Good morning, everybody!
Soccorro: I fucked up. A patient died because of me. It's my fault. the tubus i prepared was too small and i didn't know what happened. My head is aching. He became pale and he was bleeding out of his mouth. I'm sorry. I needed to get rid of all that.
PalioDeMonte: I'm sorry to hear about that and hope you're feeling better in the meantime.
You chose to do a job where you do your best to save the lives of those dying without your help. Sometimes it works out, sometimes it doesn't, but I'm convinced you always do your very best. And as you have to decide within a split second, there is no means in blaming yourself afterwards. This person would definitely have died without your help and you can't know would have survived with a bigger tubus.
I admire what you are doing and it's a job that I would be so scared of that I could never be in your position.
Furthermore, you might
listen to GhostwriterDoF, who seems to be a wise person :)
Good morning, Palio, and hi to everyone else who is reading. Thank you for your good and helpful post to Socorro.
Socorro, try to be calm and be comforted by the wise words of the people here. I agree about
Ghostwriter's words, that was also a good post.
We have some very kind people in this thread, I have a lot of +1's to give out - it's not much, but it's like a little stardust.
Soccorro: I fucked up. A patient died because of me. It's my fault. the tubus i prepared was too small and i didn't know what happened. My head is aching. He became pale and he was bleeding out of his mouth. I'm sorry. I needed to get rid of all that.
GhostwriterDoF: Your first fatality? Don’t start blaming yourself. You didn't cause it, and It is unlikely that you hastened the death with the wrong sized tubes, especially with the sign of bleeding from the mouth, indicating internal hemorrhaging. You’re just there to stabilize and transport the people, and in worst case scenarios comfort them as much as you can in their last moments. All you can do is save the ones you can.
My roommate was a paramedic in South Central L.A., and saw everything from train versus people to gunshot victims, and had seen her share folks who died in their homes or held some in her arms whilst they were dying. But she also saved hundreds of people too, It’s part of the job.
+1 for your kind words. You seem to be always around when you're needed, with encouraging, comforting and often inspirational words.
