Yesterday I was less depressed than the days before. I cleaned and tidied up my house together with the household help, did some trucking in Euro Truck Simulator 2 and installed Grim Dawn, Van Helsing III and Mad Max, feeling like trying out some new games. And today, besides the usual sigh I'm tired of life, it wasn't really that bad: did some more trucking and Grim Dawn, bought and wrote birthday cards (there's three birthdays mid april: my sister, her daughter and a friend of mine). This afternoon the monthly meeting at work and then weekend. Though with work being less busy lately, I found out I'm more rested, but at the same time I have more spare time and thus more time for mulling, so I feel less tired, but more down because there's too much space in my head to worry about life, the lack of meaning in it and bad things going on in the world, like plastic soup in the ocean and climate change and the guilt of knowing I contribute to it. Even though it's less than average with bringing my own bags when buying vegetables, not driving a car nor flying, using wind energy, it's not zero.
TL;DR: less down is a positive thing, but there's still some bitching above - wrong topic by half?
Post edited April 11, 2019 by DubConqueror