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jamyskis: I'm fucked off with pretending that my life is going well, simply because other people don't want to hear how shit I feel and how I'm supposed to be grateful for everything in my life and how, if I don't like my life, I'm supposed to magically conjure up a new job and friends. I'm fucked off with people assuming that I have some kind of choice, that I have some kind of magic wand and that I can just go on and do a different degree or apprenticeship

I'm fucked off with not having the strength or willpower to assert myself, and I'm fucked off with being used by people from all sides as a result and ruining my life. I'm fucked off for having studied the wrong thing at university because everyone pushed me into studying it because "computers are a dead end".

I'm fucked off with being stuck in a dead-end freelance job where I'm paying over half of my income on tax, health insurance and rent/utilities for my office. I'm fucked off with spending 99% of my time in contact with people who see me either as some kind of whipping boy or as some kind of money tree.

I'm fucked off for having moved for my girlfriend's sake to Lübeck, a dead-end city with fuck-all in the way of job opportunities, and where everyone is so insulate that even after FOUR FUCKING YEARS, I still haven't been able to make any friends. Not that Lübeck is entirely to blame, as my work takes up 50-60 hours of my week anyway.

I'm fucked off that my job involves doing nothing creative or useful except make undeservedly rich people even richer, and doing that for a relative fucking pittance. I'm fucked off that the one field I loved working in has all but collapsed because Germany is so fucking anti-gaming.

I'm fucked off that my lifelong retreat/hobby - gaming - has turned into a commercialised cess-pool, and that my source of relaxation has turned into a ceaseless game of watch-your-back-or-else-you'll-get-ripped off. I'm fucked off that my main means of social contact nowadays - the net - seems to be full of nerdragers and fanboys, and that it's fucking impossible to have a sensible conversation with anyone.

But most of all, I'm fucked off that I feel so dead inside nowadays that I have no drive to do anything about the above, nor any belief that anything can be done about it.

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Yeah, Lübeck sucks. That city is a great place to visit if you are a tourist but other than that, it's just a village with a horrible economy and an extremely cliquish mentality like all villages in Germany. You need to move to a city like Hamburg. It's never a good thing to listen to other people and live your life for other people because they simply don't know what is best for you and only care about themselves. People who concern themselves with others too much, always end up being miserable. Only jamyskis knows what is best for jamyskis. Sounds like you need to cut off a lot of people from your life and find a new hobby? One that hasn't been turned into a cess pool by corporations? Unfortunately, 99.9 percent of jobs out there, involves making rich people richer while getting peanuts in return. Laissez-faire capitalism doesn't work...
Post edited February 05, 2014 by monkeydelarge
So... No doctors will prescribe me klonopin. I don't know why. I've been taking it for ten years, now suddenly I am being completely denied my medication.
I run out on Friday. Unless there is a miracle, I am in for some seriously fucking horrible withdrawals over the next couple of weeks.
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jamyskis: I'm fucked off with pretending that my life is going well, simply because other people don't want to hear how shit I feel and how I'm supposed to be grateful for everything in my life and how, if I don't like my life, I'm supposed to magically conjure up a new job and friends. I'm fucked off with people assuming that I have some kind of choice, that I have some kind of magic wand and that I can just go on and do a different degree or apprenticeship

I'm fucked off with not having the strength or willpower to assert myself, and I'm fucked off with being used by people from all sides as a result and ruining my life. I'm fucked off for having studied the wrong thing at university because everyone pushed me into studying it because "computers are a dead end".

I'm fucked off with being stuck in a dead-end freelance job where I'm paying over half of my income on tax, health insurance and rent/utilities for my office. I'm fucked off with spending 99% of my time in contact with people who see me either as some kind of whipping boy or as some kind of money tree.

I'm fucked off for having moved for my girlfriend's sake to Lübeck, a dead-end city with fuck-all in the way of job opportunities, and where everyone is so insulate that even after FOUR FUCKING YEARS, I still haven't been able to make any friends. Not that Lübeck is entirely to blame, as my work takes up 50-60 hours of my week anyway.

I'm fucked off that my job involves doing nothing creative or useful except make undeservedly rich people even richer, and doing that for a relative fucking pittance. I'm fucked off that the one field I loved working in has all but collapsed because Germany is so fucking anti-gaming.

I'm fucked off that my lifelong retreat/hobby - gaming - has turned into a commercialised cess-pool, and that my source of relaxation has turned into a ceaseless game of watch-your-back-or-else-you'll-get-ripped off. I'm fucked off that my main means of social contact nowadays - the net - seems to be full of nerdragers and fanboys, and that it's fucking impossible to have a sensible conversation with anyone.

But most of all, I'm fucked off that I feel so dead inside nowadays that I have no drive to do anything about the above, nor any belief that anything can be done about it.

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It's the same Here

I'm fucked off with our Government
I'm fucked off with our rating board being a bunch of prude sissies! or over rating our games where a G8+ game get an Ma15+ or even a R18+ I'm fucked off at them FORCING game companies to over censor their games
I'm fucked off we have SLOW AS ASS internet where I wait 8 Months downloading my game collection!
I'm fucked off that my internet has 20+ dropouts a day because the Fucktards at Telstra Won't maintain their OWN copper wire
I'm also fucked off that my internet browser started fucking me around only making my second postings show up.
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AdamR: So... No doctors will prescribe me klonopin. I don't know why. I've been taking it for ten years, now suddenly I am being completely denied my medication.
I run out on Friday. Unless there is a miracle, I am in for some seriously fucking horrible withdrawals over the next couple of weeks.
That's going to be fun!

Not!
Post edited February 05, 2014 by fr33kSh0w2012
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Soccorro: Does anyone else feel like half his life is over? I mean I'm 21 and still trying to get into university. And when im finished (I hope it'll go fine) then i might be around 30. I have waited for nearly 2 years straight now and it feels like i'm wasting my time.
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AlKim: I'm still in my early twenties, I still haven't achieved anything and I still feel young. Despite our aspirations, the vast majority of people never actually achieve anything of importance; I have come to terms with the fact that I'm almost certainly among them. It's better that way.
I think it all depends on personal definitions of "achievement". Intrinsic or extrinsic?

Hell, I'm 44 and some days I still feel like I haven't "done much", despite graduating college, being in the Army, traveling a lot, writing poetry and fiction, and knowing - er, thinking - I'm smart.

I've decided the best thing is to not let this mass-media-crazed, obsessed-with-superficiality culture tell me who I am; why should I give power to strangers to make me feel like I haven't "done enough"? At the same time, I can understand how my "mental condition" (described elsewhere) has "hindered" me as well and made it so I'm just not as concerned about certain things. But anyway, before I get too far off track - carpe f*****g diem, in whatever way suits you. :-)
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jamyskis: I'm fucked off with not having the strength or willpower to assert myself, and I'm fucked off with being used by people from all sides as a result and ruining my life. I'm fucked off for having studied the wrong thing at university because everyone pushed me into studying it because "computers are a dead end".
Yeah, I had the same type of people trying to push me into a career field I didn't like. I chose the other option and went into the military where I was put into the career field I really love. And that's my advice to all High School kids looking at their careers...not the military part, but look for a career that you really enjoy and stop looking at this career field will make me six figures. Because most likely those career fields, that make you six figures, are pure torture to work in. Or they take a long time to reach that level and by that time you have accrued so much student debt, that you basically make half that paying off the debt.
Not saying it's not too late for you to get into your dream job. The computer field has a lot of great jobs without a degree needed. Just go get some certifications during your time off.
Post edited February 05, 2014 by jjsimp
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AdamR: So... No doctors will prescribe me klonopin. I don't know why. I've been taking it for ten years, now suddenly I am being completely denied my medication.
I run out on Friday. Unless there is a miracle, I am in for some seriously fucking horrible withdrawals over the next couple of weeks.
I'm not sure if these options are legal but you could go to a different country and buy it or buy it from the internet. Then you can slowly get yourself off this drug instead of going through a horrible hellish withdrawal. Of course, if those options are not legal then you should forget about those options.
Post edited February 06, 2014 by monkeydelarge
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AdamR: So... No doctors will prescribe me klonopin. I don't know why. I've been taking it for ten years, now suddenly I am being completely denied my medication.
I run out on Friday. Unless there is a miracle, I am in for some seriously fucking horrible withdrawals over the next couple of weeks.
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monkeydelarge: I'm not sure if these options are legal but you could go to a different country and buy it or buy it from the internet. Of course, if those options are not legal then you should forget about those options.
Klonopin is a controlled substance. Possessing it without a prescription is illegal.
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monkeydelarge: I'm not sure if these options are legal but you could go to a different country and buy it or buy it from the internet. Of course, if those options are not legal then you should forget about those options.
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AdamR: Klonopin is a controlled substance. Possessing it without a prescription is illegal.
Sorry to hear that. :(
Sometimes I just hate friction. The idea that a force, some force, is against you is not fun.

I want life to be a down hill fall and then a quick, painless crash at the end.

There's some philosophy theory I heard in class about some machine and that if we had a choice we could hook our bodies to enter a matrix and in that reality we would choose the conditions we want. Something about that when you study it you are supposed to realize that you don't want that, you want to be connected to reality. First I found that rather interesting but then I realized it's total hogwash. I'm like Cypher in the matrix, I take a fake world even if I know it as long as I've good food available, we can't prove we don't live in a matrix anyway so choosing a worse reality than a better dream is illogical.

Source to experience machine <- It's too hedonistic compared to what I thought of it if that makes a difference.
Had to park my car in the middle of nowhere (20 minutes by foot), after searching one hour for a free parking lot, because they're going to tow every car that's left in the streets here at 8pm. And this in a city where it is impossible to find a parking lot (most are limited to two hours!). And why? Just because our beloved Infanta Cristina, Duchess of Palma has to testify in court tomorrow... And to add even more fun, the police forgot to inform us (the residents) how and when we can leave or access our houses. I got that I should leave my car where it is, streets are blocked anyway. But what am I supposed to do when I want to leave the house? Show every cop my ID every two steps? Fight my way through the 300 accredited journalists? I think they're not letting me through when the Infanta is near my area (neither the police, nor the journalists)...

I think it'll be the best to stay at home... And all this sh!t because of a simple testimony. I think the judge just thought it's funny to muddle up the city a little bit -.-
Too tired right now to delve into the philosophies of Nozick posted above and I feel too empathetic to be able to delve much into people's worries posted above, especially the immanent Klozopin withdrawal. I'm worried about big cuts in care for the homeless in my region as a mayor institution here is in financial troubles and will close lots of it's daycare and nightcare facilities. And there will be not less but more homeless people in the future because of what the Dutch government intends to do about being more strict in the rules for benefits.

Falling between shore and ship, is the dutch expression, I fear for many people that will be true in the following years. Support for vulnerable people is eroding fast and it makes me even sicker to think of Syria we're the government isn't just cutting support like it does here, but actually waging war against it's own citizens.

I can't stand the world is such a hellish place for a lot of people and me having enough to eat, a roof over my head, loving parents and lots of games to play is small comfort and doesn't lift my sadness really. I'm sick and tired of this world where so many people and animals suffer.
Post edited February 07, 2014 by DubConqueror
After a year of no one parking in the handicap spot for our building, my family member received a handicap parking placard. We parked there over the past couple of days, with the handicap placard clearly visible yesterday and this morning.

Got home from some errands today and one of my neighbors is now parked in the handicap spot, when she has never parked there before.

Someone's feeling a little passive aggressive, I guess, though we haven't done shit to anyone here so I don't know what this special treatment is for. She's lucky we're not mean spirited, parking in a handicap spot in my state without a placard results in a minimum $250 fine as well as getting your car towed.

Some people never cease to amaze me. You try to be nice to them and in return they pull their passive aggressive bullshit and act nice to your face but do whatever they can to make your life hell.

Seriously, it's fucked up. NO ONE ever parks there.
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Leucius: After a year of no one parking in the handicap spot for our building, my family member received a handicap parking placard. We parked there over the past couple of days, with the handicap placard clearly visible yesterday and this morning.

Got home from some errands today and one of my neighbors is now parked in the handicap spot, when she has never parked there before.

Someone's feeling a little passive aggressive, I guess, though we haven't done shit to anyone here so I don't know what this special treatment is for. She's lucky we're not mean spirited, parking in a handicap spot in my state without a placard results in a minimum $250 fine as well as getting your car towed.

Some people never cease to amaze me. You try to be nice to them and in return they pull their passive aggressive bullshit and act nice to your face but do whatever they can to make your life hell.

Seriously, it's fucked up. NO ONE ever parks there.
That woman you are talking about who parked in the handicap parking spot is a insanely jealous malevolent cowardly two faced person and should be punished. Next time she does that, you should call the cops. If people, don't do anything, sit back and let people like this, have their way...evil wins.
Post edited February 07, 2014 by monkeydelarge
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Leucius: After a year of no one parking in the handicap spot for our building, my family member received a handicap parking placard. We parked there over the past couple of days, with the handicap placard clearly visible yesterday and this morning.

Got home from some errands today and one of my neighbors is now parked in the handicap spot, when she has never parked there before.

Someone's feeling a little passive aggressive, I guess, though we haven't done shit to anyone here so I don't know what this special treatment is for. She's lucky we're not mean spirited, parking in a handicap spot in my state without a placard results in a minimum $250 fine as well as getting your car towed.

Some people never cease to amaze me. You try to be nice to them and in return they pull their passive aggressive bullshit and act nice to your face but do whatever they can to make your life hell.

Seriously, it's fucked up. NO ONE ever parks there.
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monkeydelarge: That woman you are talking about who parked in the handicap parking spot is a insanely jealous malevolent cowardly two faced person and should be punished. Next time she does that, you should call the cops. If people, don't do anything, sit back and let people like this, have their way...evil wins.
Management is sending out notices early next week. I'll let it slide for the time being, but if she does it again after the notices go out, she's getting her ride towed and a free ticket for $250 compliments of yours truly.
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monkeydelarge: That woman you are talking about who parked in the handicap parking spot is a insanely jealous malevolent cowardly two faced person and should be punished. Next time she does that, you should call the cops. If people, don't do anything, sit back and let people like this, have their way...evil wins.
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Leucius: Management is sending out notices early next week. I'll let it slide for the time being, but if she does it again after the notices go out, she's getting her ride towed and a free ticket for $250 compliments of yours truly.
Good. Let the first time slide, but if she does it again, absolutely report it (and take photos just in case). Inconsiderate people like that piss me off - unfortunately I see stuff like that all the time. Which is why I have such a low opinion of people.