Welcome back and get well soon!
I thought something bad might have happened - though my guess was that the extreme weather cut you off from the internet. I thought your stories about being shitfaced where just anecdotes for comical purpose, had no idea it was so serious.
It's strange to imagine you as the "Sad Clown" type but then again I realized that I don't actually know you at all. Only your dry humor and quite funny jokes & 80s references. Damn, this post is stating to sound like an eulogy... Screw that! I'm talking to a LIVING guy!
I've never had alcoholism but one time on New Years many years ago I got so drunk that 3 classmates had to carry me home, I couldn't even open the door or find my keys so one of my friends had to ring the doorbell, wake up my parents and deliver one semi-conscious awalterj to them. My mom's reaction: "Jeez, why did you have to drink that much!!"
My dad just turned me on my side so I could puke properly and puke I did - a whole lot. It's fortunate that I was being carried home because it was freezing cold outside and I did fall face first into the snow earlier and might not have gotten up on my own anymore - thus potentially letting a couple beers and vodka shots end the saga of awalterj prematurely.
Nowadays I hardly ever drink alcohol, maybe twice a year and only in amounts I can handle (being lightweight that amount is rather low). So anyway, alcohol + winter = very dangerous. I'm glad we don't get to hear you dropped into the snow and didn't get up anymore, so good to see you back!