Posted December 15, 2011
Yesterday, after a year of struggling, hard work and constant worry, the company I work for, finally went to its knees. Any day now, it will be officially proclaimed to be bankrupt. 7 years of working with the same people, 7 years of going to work every week day, doing the work I became really good at. Aiming to improve things, to make work better for everyone. Despite us having feared it for well over a year, it still came to me as a hard blow - and bit by bit, it's dawning on me how different my life will be.
Since the news was revealed, I've only had 3 hours of sleep. Multiple attempts of getting more shut-eye failed. What now? Will I ever see these colleagues again? How will it affect my life? All the memories of the past 7 years making me look back nostalgically.
The time when it was snowing and I was still cycling to work, a trip of 40 minutes which left me looking like a snow man, earphones plugged in as I listened to the "Top 2000 of best songs ever" the day before Christmas". The many laughs and stories shared between colleagues every day, having a chat with everyone, enjoying a nice cup of coffee on a winter morning to wake up, or the friendly mood everyone was in on a nice warm summer day.
So for two days now, I've felt frazzled and a bit lost as my life seems to have come undone at the edges - the ones that were tied to my job and colleagues. After all, a full time job fills the majority of your day and even after work, you think back on what is planned tomorrow, what you have to remember to do, etc.
Watching TV can't seem to distract me as my mind keeps drifting off. But one thing can: games. Old games. Games that actually remind me of my early teenage years. Instead of being reminded of work, it reminds me of different times and another life I had back then. In a sense, old games are what I always fall back on, no matter what. They're rooted in my past and many of my favourite games have specific memories attached.
Like Guilty, which I enjoyed playing on New Year's eve, before all the guests arrive, or Broken Sword, which I was playing on a warm summer's day as my father was preparing a barbecue outside. So many games, so many memories ...
And so, it goes to show - even when your life gets thrown upside down, the good old games are always there for you to distract you, soften the blow and to offer a comforting and familiar setting for you to get lost in. Now, excuse me while I continue my game of Ultima VIII.
Since the news was revealed, I've only had 3 hours of sleep. Multiple attempts of getting more shut-eye failed. What now? Will I ever see these colleagues again? How will it affect my life? All the memories of the past 7 years making me look back nostalgically.
The time when it was snowing and I was still cycling to work, a trip of 40 minutes which left me looking like a snow man, earphones plugged in as I listened to the "Top 2000 of best songs ever" the day before Christmas". The many laughs and stories shared between colleagues every day, having a chat with everyone, enjoying a nice cup of coffee on a winter morning to wake up, or the friendly mood everyone was in on a nice warm summer day.
So for two days now, I've felt frazzled and a bit lost as my life seems to have come undone at the edges - the ones that were tied to my job and colleagues. After all, a full time job fills the majority of your day and even after work, you think back on what is planned tomorrow, what you have to remember to do, etc.
Watching TV can't seem to distract me as my mind keeps drifting off. But one thing can: games. Old games. Games that actually remind me of my early teenage years. Instead of being reminded of work, it reminds me of different times and another life I had back then. In a sense, old games are what I always fall back on, no matter what. They're rooted in my past and many of my favourite games have specific memories attached.
Like Guilty, which I enjoyed playing on New Year's eve, before all the guests arrive, or Broken Sword, which I was playing on a warm summer's day as my father was preparing a barbecue outside. So many games, so many memories ...
And so, it goes to show - even when your life gets thrown upside down, the good old games are always there for you to distract you, soften the blow and to offer a comforting and familiar setting for you to get lost in. Now, excuse me while I continue my game of Ultima VIII.