Not in. But I offer my condolences, whether they are wanted in this case or not, whether they are wanted now or not. Sometimes, the grief doesn't strike immediately. I was indifferent on my own grandmother's passing for quite some time. Hell, I was indifferent to her in life as well. Granted, she was a meddling, self-righteous alcoholic who, by all appearances despised her children (along with her will, she left a letter telling each of her daughters what failures they were). In the end though, I regret not taking her phone calls or telling her to stay out of my life. Despite her faults, I do miss her. At times, she could be a genuinely caring person, and having my father's mother pass when I was all but too young to know her, it was a nice experience. Her husband, a hen-pecked man that was the only semblance I had to a grandfather, passed a few months after, whether out of grief or lack of direction in his life (before becoming my grandmother's whipping boy he had been in the military), I do not know.
In a twisted way, I hope you are resolute with your feelings. It's easier to hate than it is to mourn. :(
Post edited September 03, 2013 by jdsiege
