Wait until you are looking after your Mentally ILL parent since 1999 till 2014 and you tell me if Life is HOPELESS or not been Looking after my Mentally ILL Mother the past 15 years taking every day as it comes had to put my life on hold indefinitely to help my mother.

My dreams, Hopes and Desires SHATTERED when the doctors told me "You will have to Look after your mother for the rest of your life" when I was just 16 years old it was like they slammed the prison doors shut on my life! I'm always getting there. Getting there always, I don't know where there is but I'm getting there another day another Nail in my coffin, who knows I could be dead tomorrow. I never chose to be born anyway, it just kinda happened. Like how my Mothers Psychosis happened that I helped her overcome.

Like when the kids at High school used to mutilate and Maul me with makeshift weapons and makeshift explosives when I was 13 years old and they were 17 and 18 years old (in Australia we do NOT have Middle school) it's Kindergarten to year 6 then year 7 to year 12 how the Lebanese and Italians used to blow me up shoot me with Nail guns and revolvers and Pretty much tear me to shreds it was fun getting my guts slashed open with a serrated kitchen knife looking at my intestines hanging out of my body threading the slashed Fucking intestines through themselves so I didn't die the ones that were cut longways I just had to leave them alone couldn't even swallow water for at least three to six months my body felt like a dried out HUSK I was so weak yet I still had to wake up in the mornings and go to high school just to be mowed down again and again, Fun anyone! I have a permanently broken shoulder socket that will need physiotherapy when I'm older because someone thought it would be fun to break it at high school.

Then when I was 21 I got my skull shattered by two thugs tanked up on crystal meth and wild turkey bourbon that took off with my mothers pension at 2am because I hadn't eaten anything in a week or slept in a week because I was so hungry and weak and my mother was so mentally ILL that she made me trek to the late night service (gas) station that was 16 kilometers away and I died 3 times on the way to hospital in the ambulance and had my teeth splinering off in my gums for years after until I eventually got most of them removed but have to go back to another dentist because the dentist I was with lanced a nerve cluster in my lower left jawbone at the back that made the whole left side of my body feel like it was gradually being set on fire and left me with serious digestive problems (feels like appendicitis and starts in LOWER RIGHT HAND abdomen but the pain moves around my body can be anywhere at any time)

so yeah I'm getting there I hate my life some days I wish I were DEAD so I don't have to put up with this hideous agony I'm going through, But then I guess I'm being selfish because my mother needs me to run the household like I've been doing for the last 15 odd years!