Telika: Thanks all. Don't worry about REAL serious stuff like health (I'm solid) or heart (WHO GIVES A SHIT), it's only, y'know, these superficial stuff that shouldn't matter, like, trying to get money or food in exchange for totally non-monetarizable formations and abilities. But it's starting to take its toll, and, I must really focus in applications and swallowings of polite "
wtf is that CV, dude, lol" rejections.
It makes space battles a bit... secondary to other responsabilities. Suddenly became psychologically too hard to switch from born-dead motivation letters to joyful flavor texts. It may be a stupid excuse, but, I owe you one.
I'll be fine, but it's a bit of a non-gaming-mindset-urgency phase, there. And a crushing "giving up on the idea of getting paid for what i'm best at" life turning point.
Don't derail. Shoot lasers. Have fun. Avenge me !
I wish you the best of luck, my friend! I'm sure everything will turn out in the best way possible, so hang in there. And as trentonlf already said, don't hesitate to call if I may be of any assistance.