Posted June 24, 2016
So are you happy with your weight?
Currently I am 210 from 313 16 years ago so yes, i would like to be 180 but...
Are you too fat? For me yes, i feel like im starting to lose again, 180.. rather under 200 is my goal
Are you too thin? Yes, my ribs stick out at the bottom and i feel beyond ugly.. but this is fat me talking
Are you just right? I will never EVER feel just right
Do you care? I care more then i will ever tell
Do you not care? I truly wish i didn't, somedays i dont thin about it and others i feel like a cow
Are you actively trying to lose weight? No because i dont want too, but i do...
Are you dieting? Yes/no i dont drink pop or eat candy havent since 2000 (lies i have some but its rare)
Are you exercising? walking roughly 3-6 miles a day and soon will start cardio training on weekends/days
Are you doing it alone? though married and have friends this struggle is always and will forever be alone
Support? Yes but they cant help its all me and mental
Do you have a fat family? Genetically predisposition to overweight (not obese)
Do you have a thin family? On one side they are all toothpicks, the other see above
Do you find it all difficult? Its not hard its a matter of desire.. i lost the weight, its been 16 years i fucking WON... but its coming back now... do i need to care? yes! do i want too... YES... will i change, i hope so!
I was 313 44' waist wearing XXL to XXXL shirts and size 13 shoes.
Now im 210 with a 34' waist wearing L t-shirts and XL print shirts and size 11-11.5 shoes.
Its hard, very hard but i use a combination of MyFitnessPal and Fooducate to watch caloric intake and make better eating choices.. If i have a choice between Mc Donalds and Subway... its Subway... eating a Pizza or Chipotle i pick Chipotle... but if there is no choice i choose moderation over indulgence and find other ways to stem cravings...
I've had 16 years to develop ways to fight... im losing my will/desire to care... i need to find it again :/
Currently I am 210 from 313 16 years ago so yes, i would like to be 180 but...
Are you too fat? For me yes, i feel like im starting to lose again, 180.. rather under 200 is my goal
Are you too thin? Yes, my ribs stick out at the bottom and i feel beyond ugly.. but this is fat me talking
Are you just right? I will never EVER feel just right
Do you care? I care more then i will ever tell
Do you not care? I truly wish i didn't, somedays i dont thin about it and others i feel like a cow
Are you actively trying to lose weight? No because i dont want too, but i do...
Are you dieting? Yes/no i dont drink pop or eat candy havent since 2000 (lies i have some but its rare)
Are you exercising? walking roughly 3-6 miles a day and soon will start cardio training on weekends/days
Are you doing it alone? though married and have friends this struggle is always and will forever be alone
Support? Yes but they cant help its all me and mental
Do you have a fat family? Genetically predisposition to overweight (not obese)
Do you have a thin family? On one side they are all toothpicks, the other see above
Do you find it all difficult? Its not hard its a matter of desire.. i lost the weight, its been 16 years i fucking WON... but its coming back now... do i need to care? yes! do i want too... YES... will i change, i hope so!
I was 313 44' waist wearing XXL to XXXL shirts and size 13 shoes.
Now im 210 with a 34' waist wearing L t-shirts and XL print shirts and size 11-11.5 shoes.
Its hard, very hard but i use a combination of MyFitnessPal and Fooducate to watch caloric intake and make better eating choices.. If i have a choice between Mc Donalds and Subway... its Subway... eating a Pizza or Chipotle i pick Chipotle... but if there is no choice i choose moderation over indulgence and find other ways to stem cravings...
I've had 16 years to develop ways to fight... im losing my will/desire to care... i need to find it again :/