Tarnicus: My father is driving 160km(100 miles) to see me tomorrow. I have seen him 3 or 4 times in 19 years. The last time was in 2007. I am unsure if I am 'happy' but it is a chance to move forward from something that has been looping within since I was a child. I am happy to have a chance to move forward with interaction, rather than alone with my own thoughts and conjecture. I am also shit scared to see him. Sixteen hours to go and hopefully I can get some sleep :)
We talked a bit about this before you left but I wanted to say I really, really hope that whatever happens you get the closure you need. And of course I'm here to talk to about it whenever.