Well I DID set the bar pretty high with my opening post

Trying to come to terms with an ex girlfriend who is no longer interested in me. Sadly, it's been over, per say, for nearly two years. We still talk, we still hang out and what ever else.
Emotionally she has moved on, actually, she did so a while ago.. She's not seeing anyone yet, but I think that's about to change.
I know the situation, I know that there's no changing it or that things can't be undone and built up again.. But I really can't let go. I've had a fair few girlfriends, but really falling in love has been sparse, to say the least.
So I'm having trouble letting go, or really accepting the situation for what it is. I could just stop seeing her, or talking to her - but I'd be losing a really close friend, someone I trust implicitly and care for regardless of personality clashes.
And to be honest, I simply wouldn't forget. I know this for a fact.
On top of that, over the last few months, I think I've lost about ten years progress as far as depression goes. Hardly sleeping, and when I do I tend to have weeks of dreams that just disturb the fuck out of me. Thankfully they go away, but they tend to make a reappearance.
Most days are a bit of a rollercoaster.. Severe agitation and irritability, which tend to peak out in a massive drop. Not really talking to anyone about anything that actually matters, this will be the most I've said in a while.
Not feeling any sort of joy, or escapism, in anything I do.
Some of my friends are going through hard times themselves, one lost her mother to Motor Neurone Disease over the xmas period, my best mate has been virtually walked out on by his father and sister. What pisses me off about that situation is that if my best mate were to suddenly die, there would be nothing but indifference from his father, and his sister.
Just fucking mind boggling. He has never done anything wrong by them, and it's a situation that's been in the works since we were kids.
And what do the three of us have in common? We don't talk.
But I've always thought, at least from a personal standpoint, that talking does sweet fuck all. Nothing really changes, and action is just as futile given some situations.
So that's my two cents.. Atleast it isn't about politics; this time.

Allah

How comes women are always the ones to move on first, it doesn't fit well with all the faithfulness 'till death they keep preaching!
Anyway, been trough something like that, I hope you'll find a way to get out of that mess since I know how much it sucks, I really do. Fingers crossed or ... whatever gesture fits into this situation :D

Such sweet irony, don't you think?
I remember reading that women tend to be invested in a relationship so far, and always have an escape plan, as it were.
The cynic in me wants to believe that, but it's hard to once you get swept up in the game all over again.
But maybe, we as men, are just simply too.. I don't know... Foolhardy and idealistic?
Cheers, mate.

Ahh yeah, that was much the same situation that lead me to start this thread in the first place. Basically its pretty much killed that part of me and its only my finely tuned arrogance that keeps me away from the depression I used to be in
I suspect that people like us are less impulsive and more deliberate and so when we get into something, a combination of enthusiasm and novelty makes us commit more than we probably should. Do you have a tendency to rack up 24 hours of play time of an awesome new game within 2 days of owning it? I suspect it has similar causes.
The best treatment for despression I've found (and I've been looking for nearly 20 years now) is to throw myself into something new and unusual, forcing myself to adapt to a new situation and get focussed on being awesome at it really managed to help. Maybe take a tafe course or something. Heh combine that with the girl troubles, do a cert 3 in tourism or some subject that is likely to attract more women than men

My house got robbed recently, over the christmas break. They stole all my school text books, all boxed games I had bought within the past year, my clothes, and various desk items. My roommates were also hit very hard. One lost both his computers, both his $4K+ mountain bikes, 5 years worth of school textbooks, tool box and...his tub of nesquik chocolate milk mix...
It's jarring and shatter to have you house robbed. It's the place you've eat slept and done a number of other things and you should feel safe when there. Now it's extremely unsettling being in this house, knowing that someone unknown has been in here and gone through your life...
On the good side, my roommate found a local listing that has listed not only the majority our stolen video games, but a broken, but stolen graphics card I had at the house. We're hoping that this is the person and that the red tape of the law doesn't stop us from catching the person or tipping them off.

Nesquik? Who the hell steals Nesquik?
What's next, stealing your collection of Pet Rocks?

Think maybe curing your depression and other issues would make her interested in you? She may be smart enough to know not to get into a relationship with a person going through such things, particularly given she's been with you already. Don't take that as a slight or anything -- I've been there myself.

Why not call the cops with the contact info?

Finely tuned rage and hatred keep me going.. I'd rather that wasn't the case. It's going to eat me up, and spit me out like it did many years ago.
For the most part, I am very deliberate, though I can be impulsive at the worst of times, often with bad outcomes. Slow and steady wins the race, or something.
Yeah, keep busy and take on enough so you don't dwell. I was actually thinking of going back to TAFE, do an art course or something.. As much as I'd like to meet someone, I'd also rather not. Goes back to investing in a lost cause.
I know that's a cynical and negative view of things, but it's how I feel at the moment.
Sorry to hear about the Fin, Alias - made a bit of cock up still thinking it was going ahead in another thread.
Give me a cure, and I'll do your bidding for life. Over ten years of treatment and not much has changed. Yes - I'm still breathing, but I'm just going through the motions, as it were.
Sadly, the depression isn't what killed the relationship. I've certainly had girlfriends who had no other option but to walk away because of it, but if my ex is to be believed, and I actually have no reason to doubt her. We were just too different.
Wanted different things out of life, far too different in personality, et cetera..
I overlook the differences, she doesn't. Funny thing she said to me, focus on the positive things about life, and the negative things about our relationship.
I almost died laughing, and it wasn't actually funny.

My main beef today is the fact that no one here where I live listens to some decent metal. It's all friggin' DiscoPolo and other techno music abominations. Also, no cool chicks, merely conservative little biddies.
Waiting until I get a decent sound system to blast some metal into this small town...

Yeah, that's where the biggest flaw tends to be me thinks. When she's different, she's interesting and damn attractive, that applies the other way around... But when people are TOO different, hell is sure to break loose soon.

The word was "Allah"
The court ruled in favor of the Catholic allowing them to use in their bibles.
Unfortunately, a single word like that can caused them to become confused.
As such, some of the muslims decided to torch the churches anyways regardless whether they are Catholics or Protestants.
Seriously, don't they have better things to do?
Note that although I am atheist, I am strongly against torching places of worship.
Malaysia, a country by idiots for idiots.

Ahh yeah I remember that, my old motto was "I shall never be cold when I have my hatred to keep me warm". Something rather 40K about that...
Well go for it, an art course sounds like a great option, the finest art in history was made by the mentally fucked up, by that logic you'll either get better or get famous and be able to have a cavalcade of meaningless sex!
Which thread? I can't say I noticed. Regardless, these things happen, the important thing is that she and I are back to being the friends we were before things got further along. Also when I recently explained to her my elaborate plan of asking her to marry me, she said she'd likely have said yes so I can take comfort in the fact that I WOULD have won if it wasn't for being unemployed, broke & on the other side of the planet.
Heh, I always find dark humour when people talk about curing depression. One of these days some clever bastard will figure out how the brain works and be able to do it, he'll probably destroy all forms of cool entertainment though. Would metal be as awesome without rage and depression? Would I enjoy GTA4 based civilian massacres if it wasn't satisfying some deeply fucked up part of my brain? Think I'd prefer the illness to the cure

Start a cult of Dethklok, it sounds like exactly the stuff you need