Some here seem to not be arguing because of you directly but because they disagree on some things related to you(but not entirely) like your words and how to handle them, it would seem.

As long as you are serious and want to change and better yourself I am willing to give you a fair shot, for what it's worth.....dunno about others, though.

Also a words of advice.....try to split up the text blocks into paragraphs with topics in each to make your replies a bit easier to read for everyone. Good luck at getting better and try to feel better about yourself,. at any rate. :)

Six months in a chemo ward, he tells me over and over he wished I had died, and you people are cutting him slack :P

How would any of you feel if someone did that to you?

Because anyone(you, me, him) can change and should be given another chance if they change for the better.

Also sorry to hear about the cancer....my dad had a very bad cancer and almost died from it....luckily they caught it in time with therapy/chemo as well or i'd be out two parents right now. A bit upset but i'd try to forgive them/ignore their words and move on as best I could. After all, they are just words.....mean words, of course, but still just words that can usually be avoided.

I don't know, is that really true?
If Hitler had said in early 1945 "I've changed, and I didn't really mean it anyway, and I had a bad childhood, my father always beat me", would you have believed him?

That is an extreme example, but let's go with it: He himself had a very long history of very very bad actions(not just words) and as such forgiving such would be much harder for anyone to do. Note I said forgiving people, not believing them necessarily.

Also anyone can be forgiven by anyone, if they so choose(for whatever reason, out of kindness or what have you).....even murderers and worse have been forgiven by people in recent and past history. Of course, whether each such person is worthy of that forgiveness is up to each person making that call or looking at it from the outside of others making such calls.

Because of all this I think anyone can change.....it's just that for some the possibility is very low so as to almost be zero.....I still think that if(like Op) the worst a person has done is say some mean words(even if very mean) & wants to change they should be given a chance to do so(one chance, at the very least).

If he really would have wanted to change, he would have created a new account, changed his ways, started from the beginning and nobody would have even guessed who he was in the past. Instead he makes his return under a well-known username (he used it in the past to troll people), comes up with this story about his mental and physical illness and threatens with suicide.

In my eyes he's just here to create new drama and to troll people again.

Both would be against the rules regardless, and we know some here would likely figure out who he was(via his unique posting style) and out him anyways.

Also maybe he does have a mental/etc illness and those words he said are genuine?

I am willing to give him the benefit of the doubt, as I try to be more optimistic and hopeful of others.....of course, if he should err again after I have given him this chance then he;s out of luck likely getting me to believe him again so readily.
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I agree he should apologize to everyone he offended in general, but I also think anyone who said anything mean to him(if any) that was truly mean should also apologize to be fair as well.

As for gifting games.....i'd suggest we all give each other games at any time as it helps Gog and who doesn't love good free games? :D

Just to check something out... What color does "your" cristina dyes her hair? Gimme an answer and you get a free hint.

i think it should be err?.. very easy for me to apologize and think about the meaning of these words and the responsibility with them. of course words are easy to say, it's something else to actually keep my word... idk what to say.. i really apologize and believe me, i'm sorry.. and i truly hope not to anger any of you again. i'd like not to anger nobody in fact not just from gog but.. i never know what might actually happen in the future...... as for others apologizing to me, well i see no point for me to ask this? i don't feel hate anymore and it's like i'd ask them to feel sorry, i don't need that. but i wanted to say something about me trying my best.. maybe some would have advice or ideas about this? for example there were times when my father asked me to do something. and i said that i'll really try and i honestly meant it. but my father often says that simply trying even your best just isn't enough. when you say you'll try, then you're ready for the possibility to fail. so you must succeed not just try... my father is different compared to me, maybe not so bad. sometimes i ask him to do something, time passes by, i begin to think he won't do it and just when i think he'll leave it for another day, he just does it. maybe that's why he's a father and i'll never have children.. the last time i asked him to fix my stereo boxes, he said he'll begin working on them from wednesday, then monday i mean 2 days before he said he begins, he asked me to bring them and he fixed them in same day. it's weird it's like some kind of virtue to think about?

@tinye: i don't know almost anything about you. there were a few times when i tried to google your username but it seems like this name tinye is widely known and used? idk more i don't remember what exactly it was about. what i wanted to say is that idk you, i can't judge you, i have no idea if you'd deserve your problems like i do or not. i don't know much about your life except what you said here on this forum like your age is 40+ or when you said your mother hates you whatever... apparently we've both had very difficult times if what you say is true. we've been hating each other maybe for long time and sometimes one of us decides he is right just because the other wrote the first insult. and you remember how time goes by, the last who's offended considers himself as innocent and out of the blue, there's another wave of words.. i really can't know what you truly think or who you really are but as i said, maybe we've both been through problems. we developed hate for each other although maybe we're not so different? maybe if i'd hate very bad then i'd hate the person in the mirror the most just because he looks angry at me. hate would blind me from seeing that he looks like me right? so anyway i got nothing against you, i'd feel better if you wouldn't apologize. i don't want to make you feel sorry. just be yourself if you wish?

@KiNgBrAdLeY7 well last time we spoke we had an argument and then silence between us ever since. although we used to talk a lot long ago. almost daily. but one thing i noticed is that i was always the one to start chatting. it's because i needed someone to talk, i felt better. not to blame you now or anything but i often wondered why.. you almost never started the talk but you often replied to me and i appreciated it. i was even thinking that you might actually like talking to me just as i liked talking to you.. (o_O) so i can't really guess what you think of me? maybe what you thought from the beginning? anyway i don't understand the joke with cristina. i really got nothing against you, i honestly enjoyed talking to you back then but i don't think i'd feel any "pleasure" in talking or joking with you again. i don't feel like joking lately as you might notice.. and since i got this conclusion, idea whatever that i should try to be better, that it's my fault for my problems, and that i should stop hating, since then i don't feel hate anymore. i mean i don't take pills for the head but i just don't feel anything right now. like no emotions? i only feel some anger or fear when i think of what might happen to me and that i deserve it..

Well I for one am willing to give you another chance,and my advice is to speak politely yet speak truth as you see it, and don't worry if you accidentally upset some as you can always apologize after if need be(so don't worry over every single word being the right one or not as long as you try to be civil and polite). Also try to see the bright side of things in life both online and offline, and treat others(even those you dislike) with civility whenever possible as it helps in the long run with getting along wit people & getting to know them.

That said, have a good one & I hope you do better on the forums/in life from now on.

since you didn't actually reply with any words i'm guessing you're still angry at me? you posted 2 photos screenshots? look sorry but it's 3:08 AM, i soon got to sleep but first i want to vape. i rarely checked photos on forum here anyway not just yours. i think that i should indeed stop hating, trying to be nice like i do on steam but here on gog there's always this sad topic and i don't quite imagine how i could be pleasant in exprimation? and no matter what i say, your attitude is always constant so what can i do?

The pics are sfw/safe to click if that's what you worry about(unless you just are tired atm?)......they show some stuff you said to him awhile back, in case you haven't checked them yet.