skimmie: Losing a relative is always tough and painful. I wish you all the best and hope you will still be able to enjoy the holidays, even if just a little bit.
Check your stocking.
Thank you (and PaterAlf as well).
It's definitely been difficult to process and grieve in a way that doesn't put my mind into really dark places due to the usual avenues like communicating with people in-person being mostly closed off for all the unfortunate reasons.
I was used to dealing with grandparents passing away but I wasn't really prepared for how much harder an impact it would have when it was a parent and I see now how bad my parents felt when they were essentially in my position at points in the past.
I don't want to be a dour cloud on the thread though so I'll leave it there.
I will say, as I've gone outside to take out garbage/etc. when needed, I've noticed how different the neighborhood decorations are this year. While typically I would see lights strung around houses, trees, bushes, etc. this year it seems the neighbors have opted to go for those lights staked into the ground that project patterns onto what they're pointed at.
It looks nice but something about it feels like it's missing that... verve, I guess, that comes from a string of lights. Maybe it's just me getting old and wistful on things, I don't know. I did notice that one neighbor did decide to place a large light-up inflatable snowman near their front door which was oddly captivating to see. I don't think they thought it through too much though, as the strong winds that usually come by have tended to topple it over quite often and typically in the mornings the snowman is usually on his side or propped against their door like he's trying to find keys in the dark after a nog bender.