Thanking all who replied, made me think some things a bit. Going to play games after some rest. Cheers!

Didn't engage more when younger either. Now I look back and guessing I am regretting this and am like why bother trying now? Perhaps this is partly it. I will think on it awhile later on after resting.

Watch out for depression. No, seriously. That "bleh" and simple frustration with everyone else around you could be depression in disguise. Ah. I see.

But I can tell you by experience the dopamine hit of gaming doesn't help. It might seem that it does but it's a hollow habit which only allows the problem to worsen whilst being distracted.

Getcha yaself some Vitamin D, maybe magnesium, and potassium.

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling like that. Personally, I find choosing a topic and doing a deep into finding all I can find out about it helps reset my brain.

My primary suggestion, as long as the weather permits, just go for a walk, get some fresh air. You'd be surprised how good that can be for your mental health.

Yea one thing you can do is stop making account(s) for a boring forum where the mods have banned you again and again

Have you talked to your parole officer about this?

When I felt similarly lost, I did just that, but all I got back was

"Excuse me, do we know each other? I don't think I've ever met you before so why are you trying to communicate with me?"

Some people just don't care...

Boredom is the best and most expensive thing you can have. Think about it. Unless you are in prison or similar, being bored is nice. You could be homeless. You could be living with abusers. You could have a host of stuff going wrong.

You cant control the assholes around you either. People will always get up to wrong doing.

In English, I get annoyed with people putting an S at the end of a word that does not require it. Like Armor, Fish or Fire.

Small things are like tentrils from the the abyss sometimes. We all feel that they grab you and pull you down. That is normal. When we reach down and pull it up.....thats not good.

That happened to me around my 25th birthday. I called it the "young age crisis". Basically everything and everyone bothered me, and life was kind of "meh", with no real purpose or direction. Don't get me wrong, I had a good comfy job, I lived on my own (still do) but somehow my free time was "being wasted" or at leas that's what I was thinking, and therefore everytime something made me lose even seconds in my life (like people taking longer to pay at the supermarket) would irritate me. Eventually I learned that I can't control what happens around me, but I can control how I react to it.

Now I'm reaching 40 and I have a different job, live someplace else (same city though) and I believe I'm entering what I call the "middle age nagging" haha... I'm basically turning into one of those "get off my loan" kind of guy, but finding new hobbies helped: I recently got into boardgaming, I started reading gamebooks (turns out Choose Your Own Adventure books are not the only ones in existence haha), and I'm listening to more music...

Also importante: stop watching the news, they just pre-disposition you to be in a bad mood, now I just enter a news portal and skim the titles and if anything interests me, I might read the article).

Either go for a walk or explore a new hobby, but going for a walk is definitely the least you can do to improve your mood when you have nothing else to do. It's better than just staying at one place and letting yourself be overrun by negative thoughts.

Posting on a gaming forum is some of the least helpful things you can do. Talk to someone, take a break, get some fresh air. If you do struggle, seek counseling.

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Might getting back into multivitamins for my health. Couldn't hurting anyways.
I watching inforgraphics on youtube and other documentaries as wel sometimes. Maybe i'll watching some tonight.
Yes I be needing a walk. Spending too much time inside when not working.
You are right it could always being worse. Better to keep looking for what's good about life!
I get frustrated at the red lights and such things so this might be it. Of course I also be ok with waiting in long lines sometimes as it gives me time to think at the stores. Weird is it not? Still what you are saying rings true.

CYOA books are being very nice to read. Would like if they made more gritty serious ones for older age groups.

You are being right here. Sometimes I do not care as much as I should be doing. Apathy and fear are being some of the biggest enemies of peoples I think.

Depending on the peoples, if the group is small and not a large social medias site, I finding it sometimes better than counseling and like online support group. Getting fresh air and talking to peoples is very good advice though.

Disliking tree climbing due to other issues but I can climbing trees in games and my mind.