honestly i don't care about nobody in the world except me. however i noticed that if i do "BAD" things, bad things happen to me too! this worries me of course, so i want to see what happens if i do good sh!t... :-/ also like a week ago i did some tarot readings - the simplest kind of tarot where you have to pick only 1 or 2 cards.. and twice in a row i got the same mother facking cards! the devil and the wheel... the meaning is that in the future i'll have to make a choice - the ethical choice will seem the bad one and the right choice will seem wrong... and somehow i got to pick what's best for me... :( and on top of all this bullsh!t i got that weird feeling again! i feel like... silence.. like a calm before the storm.. i think something is going to happen to me and it's going to be soon! reminds me of Final destination - life is a b!tch and then you die... whatever.. so i was wondering if i can help people somehow. like volunteering to do "work" or things. but i don't want to donate my organs or waste too much money or even move out of my home. it has to be on the internet if possible.. and legal :-/ i take no pleasure in helping people but maybe that's the right way

What.

Raise a kitten?

TinyE, I believe it's your queue.

man i don't know what your talking about! :( tinyE? maybe tinyD from tiny d!ck. i owned that mother long time ago. he don't say SH!T to me now he lost his nerve

Nevermind then. And can't you prevent yourself from being rude ? If you have issues, I am pretty sure it starts there.

First of all you absolutely can't do good sh!t, I tried it doesn't work. Sh!it is always sh!tty.

I don't believe in Karma laws but for some reasons *energy ways* in life are persistent with making me think otherwise. You can't just do good things out of nothing. If you feel like sh!t you will do bad things even when doing them right.
It's the same with cooking. Even if you cook very good and delicate meal it will be a mess if your mind is full of bad *chi* ;)))

I suggest first to open up your anger, crush something like plates and scream. Then you get a bit of calm embrace a short period of fasting. Remove drugs/alcohol/tobacco and sweets from your life just for a while. Learn to look into yourself. Try to listen classical music of some meditation music. Try eating in total silence without watching TV or YouTube or something else. Try to be grateful for a chance to live one more day in this plane (Planescape? ;0).
Only after this short cleansing procedures you might want to start doing some good stuff.

But above all just STOP using cursing or any other bad words. People just don't realize that words are first instruments that forge our lives. Cursing people are often stupid or corrupted at best.

Thinking you're special and "[not caring] about nobody in the world except [you]", is the safest road to disappointment. Start here : lower your expectations about everything and try to relate to people. It's not hard, but it isn't quick either.


And don't be rude to strangers or in public places. That's a dark road too. You want to feel better right know ? Apologize to TinyE before he gets here.

Shit. You got me there. :P

Always remember these old sayings

The road to hell is paved with good intentions.

No good deed goes unpunished..

:)

- I suggest first to open up your anger, crush something like plates and scream.

well no i don't feel that angry right now

- Remove drugs/alcohol/tobacco and sweets from your life just for a while.

i drink wine, smoke and vape - vape i mean electronic cigarette. but err?.. i can't really stop smoking and vaping? that would make me real angry all the time

- Learn to look into yourself. Try to listen classical music of some meditation music.

when i was 13 i did yoga because i thought it was interesting. and in 5 minutes or so i entered that "alpha" state when you don't feel you're body anymore and your calm but i didn't notice any other difference in my thinking like "learning to look into myself". so i got to make more yoga?

- Try eating in total silence without watching TV or YouTube or something else.

i always do that

- Try to be grateful for a chance to live one more day in this plane (Planescape? ;0).

but i still wonder what is our purpose here. or even if the world is real or if it's just in my head

- But above all just STOP using cursing or any other bad words. People just don't realize that words are first instruments that forge our lives. Cursing people are often stupid or corrupted at best.

hm.. ok i guess i can try that ok i apologize to you TinyE if you ever read this message. i don't really understand what good this will do but ok, i take back my words

Well, maybe that is then the good deed you need to do in your life: fix your relationship with TinyDick!

And you can do it on the internet as well, just as you wished!

Apart from that, I was proposing you do something to make the life of the Romanian gypsies better off, since you are already there. Give them food, a job, or something. Or if you are one yourself, help yourself!

So you don't care about anybody and you don't like to help other people but you expect completly strangers on the internet to help and advice you on your life crisis?

Let that sink and you will realise where the problem lies. If you do something good only because you expect something in return for it it's not good at all.

Sounds like Sociopathy to me! Or is ot Psychopathy?