Tarnicus: <snip>
It is cold and raining in Oberon, I have half a cigarette left, and I am about to head out to my camp and will be ceasing communication with others until I find the peace and balance that I need.
I am tired, feeling low, and am worn out from trying to find my place of "being"; to fit in with people that are quick to judge and criticise, based on little understanding or compassion of what it is like to live life with constant adversity and struggle. I am fortunate to be able to find solace in the bush without the threat of war, unlike many others in the world. I hope to get to state where I do not weigh the negative and criticism more than the positive in life. "Trying" rather than "being" is the crux of my mental state right now. The difficulties in trying to find a house for Thea, myself and my cats has really done my head in, and was compounded by reading shit from others on these forums. Obviously the best course of action is to have a break and find some calm within and develop "thicker skin".
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Hey Tarnicus, no matter where one goes in life there's a good chance to find a very diverse range of personalities of which way may or may not always agree with or may end up being judged or criticized whether we feel it justified or not. It's just human nature I suppose, and we may find ourselves on either side of it at times as we're all human. It can be difficult to shrug off the criticism, judgment, blame or insults of others at time and I'm sure anyone would agree with that. Sometimes I find it best to ignore such situations, other times to avoid the situation/confrontation entirely and vanish for a short/medium/long while or even permanently as best fits the situation at hand, other times to try to greet hostility with kindness and compassion while biting my tongue, and to accentuate bad experiences with things that I enjoy that might help take the edge off (games, entertainment, positive people/situations I enjoy being around, etc.)
I haven't followed the threads too closely to know the details of what has brought on your current situation in the forums, but your participation in the forums overall I believe is widely enjoyed by most folks. We all can have our good days and bad, and can act and react in ways that aren't the best at times, but overall we've got a good community here and you're a valuable contributor to that I believe, so I hope you have yourself some good R&R and rejoin us again when you're feeling better. Try not to let the occasional disagreement or dispute let you down too much, and if need be, install Postal or Postal 2 and let off some steam! ;oP
Take care!
(send via PM as well in hopes you don't miss it if you're away)