Good evening everyone !!!
Hum... everyone is maybe a bit excessive :) Where have all the good people gone ?...
Hope you're fine.
[EDIT], ho, well... it seems you're all back while I was writing my screed, heehee :")
LaPtiteBete: Glad your anxiety medication works... Sad to read you're still crying... :(
**Big HUG** Boy, you really live in the middle of nowhere :-\
And... What about getting your driving license ?
AgentBirdnest: *Big hug*
I am scared to death of driving. Every time I tried to learn, I would just have a panic attack.
I just don't want to drive. It is too stressful for me. My grandma was the same way - she never drove in her entire life.
I understand your point...
Even if it's not my case, I've always wanted to drive ; when I was 3 years old, I used to draw combine harvesters with me driving :D ant a bit later, fire trucks... Fortunately I outgrew that eventually ^^
When I was younger I was petrified when it was about talking to people (even worse, in front of my classmates). I almost fainted, turned red, sweat, my heart was beating far too fast, and I couldn't tell any word. All the time... on every school report there were comments like "I never heard the sound of her voice", that kind of stuff. and I've never managed to surpass that... until I had to give lectures for my work, a few years ago. The first times were horrible, I felt like a child again. Then I realized two things ; 1) I didn't want to be that shy girl anymore, I am NOT a child anymore, and 2) peopple I talk to don't know me, they are NOT my old classmates, they don't know how shy I am... so it was a chance to eventually show them who I wanted to be now, and not who I were in the past... it's a huge work, a daily work, but I consider each speech I make as a bit of experience, an occasion to improve myself. Even if it doesn't go the way I've planned, I try to see them as an opportunity to learn more (about myself, about the others...). about communication. It's my pet hate ; and I need to domesticate it... (I'm still not able to sing "happy birthday" loud, I limp-synch :D hehe)
I don't suffer as much as you do ; I don't try to compare, or minimize your fears. But the fact that you don't feel ready today doesn't mean that you won't be tomorrow... I like the "small steps" method... Each day you settle yourself an objective, even a tiny one. The important is to reach your goals, it improves your self-worth and trust... step by step. At the beiginning, go and ask for directions, for example, was just unthinkable... :-|