Posted December 31, 2015
Everyone who hates me, you can rejoice. Today i received a mighty blow that i never saw it coming. An ex of mine that i really loved, once upon a merry time, but she played me for a fool and sold me out... A person i ripped my own heart out of my chest in order to forget (and failed at even that, too)... A person whose behavior against me brought years of suffering and hell... A person without which i almost died (and this literally)... Today, suddenly, out of the blue, she visited my mansion. After years. Seeing that face again, after those memories with her, made even me feel pain, razor sharp, cutting glass straight in chest. I had the worst new year's previous day i 've ever had over the last 30 years. Doubly so, since i had other relatives as guests for dinner, snakes and serpents the lot of them, but i couldn't avoid/evade the gathering. Woe me, black year once more, it is, then. Curses, devil, anathema! My faked, self inflicted illusionary feeling of satisfaction and contentment, by stealing things belonging to others or trying to substitute for those i dearly missed and lacked, came down crashing in but a very small, short, instant. Back to square one; destroyed and mocked on top of that, even. What the hell, i aspired to become a senseless, emotionless-wannabe stooge, who can be "bullied" by the mere presence of a younger girl and has his mood completely ruined, over something others give no value at and treat like a cheap faq-toy (i lurked her for some time); she had been the entire world to me, back then... So much for my stupidity and gullibility.
Downvote me, talk crap about me, send me to hell, but in vain this is all going to be; i am in hell already. Over the last 7 years, anyway. This is an ill omen that does not bode well for new year's, at all... Why did she have to come invade my home? Why had she to come back and torment me? Why did she have to return to the scene of the crime and demolish my entire world, butcher out the remnants of my heart for a second time? God, i hate you. Gods, you twisted my prayers and aspirations and you brought me punishment, for becoming vile instead of virtuous, even though i was destroyed from devils wearing the guise of a human, before! Curses! Now the only thing i wish for, is to watch *it* burn. Before those two eyes, a feast of others' suffering will be witnessed. I demand compensation for my destruction at the hands of the people i trusted and loved, once; from above, from below, i don't care, from wherever the hell calamities can run loose on the world and wreck both objects and souls alike. The world to which i once offered my heart at with the most beautiful dreams adorning it, all of those were cruelly murdered down to the very last one; this world, i want to see it go down in flames. Even if it is the last thing i will ever do.
Downvote me, talk crap about me, send me to hell, but in vain this is all going to be; i am in hell already. Over the last 7 years, anyway. This is an ill omen that does not bode well for new year's, at all... Why did she have to come invade my home? Why had she to come back and torment me? Why did she have to return to the scene of the crime and demolish my entire world, butcher out the remnants of my heart for a second time? God, i hate you. Gods, you twisted my prayers and aspirations and you brought me punishment, for becoming vile instead of virtuous, even though i was destroyed from devils wearing the guise of a human, before! Curses! Now the only thing i wish for, is to watch *it* burn. Before those two eyes, a feast of others' suffering will be witnessed. I demand compensation for my destruction at the hands of the people i trusted and loved, once; from above, from below, i don't care, from wherever the hell calamities can run loose on the world and wreck both objects and souls alike. The world to which i once offered my heart at with the most beautiful dreams adorning it, all of those were cruelly murdered down to the very last one; this world, i want to see it go down in flames. Even if it is the last thing i will ever do.
Post edited December 31, 2015 by KiNgBrAdLeY7