Posted October 11, 2011
OK timppu. You win. Is that what I'm supposed to say to make you shut the fuck up already? Jesus Christ
CaptainGyro
GogPartyPooper
Registered: Aug 2009
From United States
bazilisek
gone
Registered: Oct 2009
From Czech Republic
Posted October 11, 2011
Post edited October 11, 2011 by bazilisek
KOCollins
Iricaum Selais
Registered: Nov 2009
From United States
Posted October 14, 2011
I could fill up this thread...but, I think most people could...just few of us feel like we should do that...I was taught to not burden others with our many problems...and I learned just nobody else really cares about them anyways....Don't get me wrong, I care about you guys, and I hope for the best for all of you...but some of your problems are so small...of course many of you haven't lived as long as I and others, and suffered as much either....This life can be a bitch...but no matter how down you guys are feeling, or how isolated, never forget that there is life, and where there is life, there is something good, some hope of a better day. Perhaps we personally will never see a better day, but, I know others will...perhaps our time is short, perhaps it is getting close to that last boat trip to hades....but there is life, we leave behind us..and where there is life, there can be good, and there is hope...There should be a thread about hope and the like...yet many of us dwelll on the sadness that is all around us...If I went that route I wouldn't stil be here now...Dudes, pain, wow, it is so much more than many of you understand yet...life only gets harder with age, but, that doesn't mean that we loose ourselves...instead we hope, instead we learn, instead we understand what it means to live and when it is our time to go...we must accept it, and maybe we will see again those that have already left us...and maybe we will feel that which we have never felt..who knows....I am drunk tonight...I know this may not make a lot of sense...But I think we all would be much happier, and better off, if we always kept in our hearts the good that is in our lives...Lord I know there is so much bad, so much suffering...yet to dwell on it, only makes those wounds deeper. It is not good, and not worth it...So free yourselves my friends...Live and enjoy life, for it is too short, and before you know it, you, or those you care most about will be gone... forever...Now when we live, is the time to build memories, the time to cherish, for it is all we have...Anger, hate, hurt feelings, they just get in our way of what really matters...eachother...and the caring and love we should be feeling together. peace all and goodnight..No matter what you are going through, know you are never alone...for though many people in this world have found callousness an easy way to live, I find caring for others the best most rewarding way..and I care about you all, and do hope you all feel well and live well...Sorry for the rambling, but, I feel that some of you who post here really need a friend, really need someone to point them some way...to show them that the world still cares, and that their lives are not empty...they are never empty...and death is no answer, no easy way out...for there is still good in this world, in this life, there is still hope, and therefore there is still something to live for...Tommorrow will soon be our today.
*note, I wote this really really wasted, please don't insult me, doing so only lowers your own self, and does not effect me...for I have been insulted by many, and yet, I still alone, know myself, and my own worth...that is something none can take from you, no matter how hard they may try....remember that friends...acceptance feels importand, and can be...but what is most important is that we accept ourselves...Sweet dreams all. :D
*note, I wote this really really wasted, please don't insult me, doing so only lowers your own self, and does not effect me...for I have been insulted by many, and yet, I still alone, know myself, and my own worth...that is something none can take from you, no matter how hard they may try....remember that friends...acceptance feels importand, and can be...but what is most important is that we accept ourselves...Sweet dreams all. :D
Hawk52
New User
Registered: May 2010
From United States
Posted October 14, 2011
*note, I wote this really really wasted, please don't insult me, doing so only lowers your own self, and does not effect me...for I have been insulted by many, and yet, I still alone, know myself, and my own worth...that is something none can take from you, no matter how hard they may try....remember that friends...acceptance feels importand, and can be...but what is most important is that we accept ourselves...Sweet dreams all. :D
But if you want it to work you need to make it more presentable. Less ellipses, no justified alignment, better structure, and paragraph breaks would help immensely.
But on your point:
I've kept everything that bothered me, that hurt me, that at one point made me suicidal inside. I buried it in myself, so deep that no one around me had any idea of how bad I was off. I kept it all locked up not sharing with anyone. And you know what happened? I'm twenty five, I've made no movement in my life, and I've let my mental demons so utterly destroy me that I'm almost back to square one with no light in sight.
But lately, I've been waking back up and fighting back. I realized I've lost a year of my life when I gave up on everything I used to love and retreated into a shell. You know what did it; what woke me up? This Thread. I learned that even if it's "strangers", I can share with people. That it's not selfish to be in pain, that it's not my fault that I feel this way. I don't expect people to rush to my aid, but a few words is all it takes.
I know you probably didn't mean to make it sound like we're whiners or bitchers, but it comes off that way, like we're not helping ourselves by venting here, but I can honestly tell you that we do help ourselves by posting in this thread. If you can let life beat you down and walk away smiling, that's cool. I can't. I either fight or I flee, there's no middle ground. And when there's nothing to fight, I turn on myself. I blame myself for everything that's gone wrong, could go wrong, or will go wrong. And when your own brain turns against you? Sometimes you need to vent, to a support network of sorts. This is mine.
Aliasalpha
Once Proud
Registered: Dec 2008
From Australia
Posted October 14, 2011
Heh there was, it just wasn't anything like as popular. Whether this is because people like to bitch and get things off their chest or whether they just love threads made by me I can't say for sure.
Hawk52: But lately, I've been waking back up and fighting back. I realized I've lost a year of my life when I gave up on everything I used to love and retreated into a shell. You know what did it; what woke me up? This Thread. I learned that even if it's "strangers", I can share with people. That it's not selfish to be in pain, that it's not my fault that I feel this way. I don't expect people to rush to my aid, but a few words is all it takes. Woohoo! You've just made my day mate!
Ooh even more important, if you turn your life around and get rich, am I entitled to royalties?
Ooh even more important, if you turn your life around and get rich, am I entitled to royalties?
Post edited October 14, 2011 by Aliasalpha
KOCollins
Iricaum Selais
Registered: Nov 2009
From United States
Posted October 14, 2011
I'm sorry for coming off like that Hawk52 I was really about as clobbered as I could be and still think in coherent sentences. After I posted it, I started to think that I didn't say things quite like I meant to. I think everyone is different. For me, I always had to keep things locked inside, no matter what they were for the most part, and so I had to adjust my thinking and living to cope with that. I do realize, now that I am more sober, that of course everyone has different ways of dealing with their problems. And that their ways are no better or worse, per se, than my own. :)
If this thread helps people to feel better, than it is a great thread. Really! I just said what I said, because I didn't want people to always dwell on the bad, and I was hammered enough not to think it completely through. I've got this silence about my troubles ingraved very deeply in my being by this point in my days, that it is hard to imagine a different way.
Again, I apologize Hawk52, I wasn't actually refering to anyone specifically when I said about people posting smaller issues here, and I also know many have been through a Hell, that I can't fathom either. I am all for what helps people in their lives, including this thread. And know that, as I said above, I do care about your well being, and hope for the best for you, and I do hope you put your dark days behind you, forever.
What I really just wanted to do was remind people of the good in life. Of what we all have to live for, even when it doesn't seem like it. There just came a point in my life a while back when the bad just out weighed the good by so much, I realized the only way I could deal with it was to just let go of most of the pain, and to move on as best I could. To deny the sadness, and starve it of it's fuel of agony. If that makes any sense. Life just wasn't worth it to spend my days thinking of all that was wrong with them. It was much better to think about what was good in them. =)
Well I must apologize again for I got a bit of a hangover today. Ooops. ;-P And am still not very clear no doubt! :)
And don't read too much into my words when I am hammered. It's harder to think outside of the confines of my own expereince then. In fact, I believe for now on, in the rare occasions when I get so snookered, I will restrain from posting anywhere besides the drunk thead, where I belong then. ;-)
Have a great day Hawk52, you are a good guy in my book! :D
Now I will end with these words: Bitch away, if it will help your day! :-D
PS: I tried to get the sentence structure better this time! Hoped you liked it! ;)
If this thread helps people to feel better, than it is a great thread. Really! I just said what I said, because I didn't want people to always dwell on the bad, and I was hammered enough not to think it completely through. I've got this silence about my troubles ingraved very deeply in my being by this point in my days, that it is hard to imagine a different way.
Again, I apologize Hawk52, I wasn't actually refering to anyone specifically when I said about people posting smaller issues here, and I also know many have been through a Hell, that I can't fathom either. I am all for what helps people in their lives, including this thread. And know that, as I said above, I do care about your well being, and hope for the best for you, and I do hope you put your dark days behind you, forever.
What I really just wanted to do was remind people of the good in life. Of what we all have to live for, even when it doesn't seem like it. There just came a point in my life a while back when the bad just out weighed the good by so much, I realized the only way I could deal with it was to just let go of most of the pain, and to move on as best I could. To deny the sadness, and starve it of it's fuel of agony. If that makes any sense. Life just wasn't worth it to spend my days thinking of all that was wrong with them. It was much better to think about what was good in them. =)
Well I must apologize again for I got a bit of a hangover today. Ooops. ;-P And am still not very clear no doubt! :)
And don't read too much into my words when I am hammered. It's harder to think outside of the confines of my own expereince then. In fact, I believe for now on, in the rare occasions when I get so snookered, I will restrain from posting anywhere besides the drunk thead, where I belong then. ;-)
Have a great day Hawk52, you are a good guy in my book! :D
Now I will end with these words: Bitch away, if it will help your day! :-D
PS: I tried to get the sentence structure better this time! Hoped you liked it! ;)
Hawk52
New User
Registered: May 2010
From United States
Posted October 14, 2011
It's all good. I just wanted to express my thoughts on the subject. There's nothing wrong with sharing opinions and thoughts.
Trevorish
New User
Registered: Apr 2011
From Canada
Posted October 17, 2011
So I've been running low on money these days and haven't bought many games. However, today I logged onto steam and saw Kaptain Brawe on sale for $5.00. I hadn't heard of it so I read a couple reviews and played the demo. I really enjoyed the demo and was about to buy it when I saw that it was now $20.00. In the minuted it took me to decide whether to get the game the sale had ended and the price had raised by 3 times the earlier amount...
Post edited October 17, 2011 by Trevorish
HereForTheBeer
Positive Patty
Registered: Oct 2009
From United States
Posted October 18, 2011
Two months back I made a service visit to a customer whose machine was down. We ordered up a few parts from the OEM, one of them very expensive, and got the machine working within an hour. Of course, it was the expensive PC card that was causing the problem. I got in touch with the OEM and asked if they could repair it. They said yes so I talked it over with the customer and swapped them the broken card for my visit. In other words, they gave me the bad card and I gave them a free service visit.
Once I returned home, I got a return authorization number from the OEM and sent them the card.
Yesterday, after talking with another customer who might be looking for that same card, it crossed my mind that I hadn't yet heard back about the card I sent for repair back in mid-August. I e-mailed the OEM and asked about it. Here's the response:
This sort of thing drives me up the wall. I'm trying to give you money. All you have to do is get back to me with a simple bit of info, or a quote, or send the item for repair, or whatever it is that you, as a vendor, would normally do as part of your daily business. And then they don't do it. Too busy pulling cash off the money tree out back, I suppose.
Once I returned home, I got a return authorization number from the OEM and sent them the card.
Yesterday, after talking with another customer who might be looking for that same card, it crossed my mind that I hadn't yet heard back about the card I sent for repair back in mid-August. I e-mailed the OEM and asked about it. Here's the response:
I have not sent a batch of stuff for repair to the factory as of yet. Your card is still here.
Umm, it's been two months and you haven't even sent it back to the factory for evaluation and repair?!? Are you allergic to money? This sort of thing drives me up the wall. I'm trying to give you money. All you have to do is get back to me with a simple bit of info, or a quote, or send the item for repair, or whatever it is that you, as a vendor, would normally do as part of your daily business. And then they don't do it. Too busy pulling cash off the money tree out back, I suppose.
sonicxxrushxx
New User
Registered: Oct 2011
From United States
Posted October 18, 2011
I only have 2 complaints.
1.Not enough money to play all these awesome games.
2.Crappy internet. Wish I lived in UK.
1.Not enough money to play all these awesome games.
2.Crappy internet. Wish I lived in UK.
wyorot
Still awake
Registered: Nov 2008
From United States
Posted October 18, 2011
So i turn 34 today. I haven't worked since January i'm in the middle of a divorce which just so happened to start a year ago today, and my shrink wants to put me on lithium. Woo hoo
AndrewC
Code Ninja
Registered: Sep 2008
From Romania
Posted October 19, 2011
I should have gotten broadband installed tomorrow but Virgin Media called to tell me that the tech will come on the 25th.
So now I'm sitting slowly watching a SVN update which goes from 0 Bytes/s to around 10 KB/s and then back to 0 for a few minutes. The nice thing about this? It's related to the job interview I'm going to take once it fucking finishes downloading!
Gaaaah!
So now I'm sitting slowly watching a SVN update which goes from 0 Bytes/s to around 10 KB/s and then back to 0 for a few minutes. The nice thing about this? It's related to the job interview I'm going to take once it fucking finishes downloading!
Gaaaah!
orcishgamer
Mad and Green
Registered: Jun 2010
From United States
Posted October 19, 2011
Hang in there.
So now I'm sitting slowly watching a SVN update which goes from 0 Bytes/s to around 10 KB/s and then back to 0 for a few minutes. The nice thing about this? It's related to the job interview I'm going to take once it fucking finishes downloading!
Gaaaah!
Post edited October 19, 2011 by orcishgamer
orcishgamer
Mad and Green
Registered: Jun 2010
From United States
Posted October 19, 2011
Okay, I don't usually bitch here because I somehow feel I don't have whatever metaphysical right that allows it.
But I want to bitch anyway.
I had a birthday, again, where I paid for my own dinner, the only person there to celebrate it with me was my daughter. I had to pick out my own gift and let her order it off of Amazon for me. Last year she drew me a picture (I still have it).
But all that would be okay, because every year my parents call me in the morning and sing an embarrassing and off-tune happy birthday song to me. Most of my siblings call me, especially my brother who I like a lot and speak with frequently. I get a card from my parents and sometimes a random extended family member. So it's all okay. I don't really want any more than to know that I'm somehow important to them.
This year I got 2 texts from my sisters, no cards from any family, no calls from anyone. My fucking life insurance guy sent me a card, one of those pre-printed Happy Birthday bullshit postcards that they write off as a business expense. Wtf? No belated calls over a week later. My daughter picked up on it and tried to invite my brother over on Sunday, I was making cookies and I told her she could invite him over for pizza and cookies, but he didn't come (she got too confused on the phone to mention my birthday which was well past anyways, by then).
You know, I'm not the best person about birthdays, I'm inconsistent on sending gifts or cards, but I always, always at least call and tell everyone that I love them, even if it's far too late to get a card off.
I feel like I'm whining saying anything, but it actually made me feel far worse than I thought it would.
But I want to bitch anyway.
I had a birthday, again, where I paid for my own dinner, the only person there to celebrate it with me was my daughter. I had to pick out my own gift and let her order it off of Amazon for me. Last year she drew me a picture (I still have it).
But all that would be okay, because every year my parents call me in the morning and sing an embarrassing and off-tune happy birthday song to me. Most of my siblings call me, especially my brother who I like a lot and speak with frequently. I get a card from my parents and sometimes a random extended family member. So it's all okay. I don't really want any more than to know that I'm somehow important to them.
This year I got 2 texts from my sisters, no cards from any family, no calls from anyone. My fucking life insurance guy sent me a card, one of those pre-printed Happy Birthday bullshit postcards that they write off as a business expense. Wtf? No belated calls over a week later. My daughter picked up on it and tried to invite my brother over on Sunday, I was making cookies and I told her she could invite him over for pizza and cookies, but he didn't come (she got too confused on the phone to mention my birthday which was well past anyways, by then).
You know, I'm not the best person about birthdays, I'm inconsistent on sending gifts or cards, but I always, always at least call and tell everyone that I love them, even if it's far too late to get a card off.
I feel like I'm whining saying anything, but it actually made me feel far worse than I thought it would.
Hawk52
New User
Registered: May 2010
From United States
Posted October 19, 2011
But I want to bitch anyway.
I had a birthday, again, where I paid for my own dinner, the only person there to celebrate it with me was my daughter. I had to pick out my own gift and let her order it off of Amazon for me. Last year she drew me a picture (I still have it).
But all that would be okay, because every year my parents call me in the morning and sing an embarrassing and off-tune happy birthday song to me. Most of my siblings call me, especially my brother who I like a lot and speak with frequently. I get a card from my parents and sometimes a random extended family member. So it's all okay. I don't really want any more than to know that I'm somehow important to them.
This year I got 2 texts from my sisters, no cards from any family, no calls from anyone. My fucking life insurance guy sent me a card, one of those pre-printed Happy Birthday bullshit postcards that they write off as a business expense. Wtf? No belated calls over a week later. My daughter picked up on it and tried to invite my brother over on Sunday, I was making cookies and I told her she could invite him over for pizza and cookies, but he didn't come (she got too confused on the phone to mention my birthday which was well past anyways, by then).
You know, I'm not the best person about birthdays, I'm inconsistent on sending gifts or cards, but I always, always at least call and tell everyone that I love them, even if it's far too late to get a card off.
I feel like I'm whining saying anything, but it actually made me feel far worse than I thought it would.
I don't have a great relationship with most of my family, and I really don't regard family that highly due to it. But no matter what anyone else does to you, you've got your daughter who sounds like a wonderful little girl. And is she loves you, and she wants you to be happy, does it really matter all that much if the rest of your family are being asses for some reason?