viperfdl: Sorry to hear about your pain and loss. I don't know what your health problem is but when specialists cannot find anything, maybe your problem is rather psychologically. It's called
psychosomatics. Maybe a psychiatrist or psychotherapist could help you. Just a thought.
Oh, unfortunately, I already went that road, and I'm still walking (well...) on it.
I'm not so sure myself of my affliction but I've now seen 5 different specialists, not mentionning any other doctors I've talked with through the years (such as my psychiatrist) for different reasons . What is funny, is that most of them seem to agree on the same medical condition when "off record", but none of them put it on paper. Unless any of them do that, whenever they go silent, it's looping all over again.
I'm not blaming anyone, even though it seems so. I'm sure they have their reasons. It has simply been four long years, I'm still young but I'm in a worst shape than my 77 years old grandmother (which I'm often leaning -litterally- over when I need to go somewhere :))
But thanks for your concern, in lack of progress today, I will undeniably have to turn to your hypothesis again.
EDIT : Oh, and please, take no offense in my answer. I've been told many time IRL that I'm agressive or on the defensive. I'm simply lacking the ability to form coherent thoughts since it began four years ago, which is even more visible verbally that in writings, if that's possible. =)