penumbren:

CarrionCrow: Eh, it's more like embracing the idea of being tired whether I sleep or not. I'm not sitting here actively sale watching. That ship sailed, caught fire, burned and sank after the first 6 hours.

penumbren:

penumbren: Just had to stop in to let off some stress. What follows is sort of long and personal.

Some of you know that my grandparents raised me; my grandfather had a stroke last November. It was pretty severe, but he recovered almost completely - up into the 90+ percent, which is amazing. He even got his driver's license back this Tuesday. He's still pretty easily fatigued and weaker on his right side.

Today, he went outside to start the riding lawn mower and pick up pine cones and such off the lawn before mowing. After he'd been outside for about ten minutes without hearing anything, my aunt went out check on him and found him sitting at the bench in the shop, unable to stand up. Apparently, the lawn mower had a flat tire that he wanted to inflate with the air compressor, but came over weak. He had almost no voice at all. When I went out a few minutes later, it looked like possible heat stroke/over-exertion - pale, sweaty, etc. - but when we called 911 because we couldn't move him, he ended up with a super-low blood pressure of 74/42, so went to hospital. Right now, doctors are testing to see if he had another stroke and they're looking at the possibility that he may need a pacemaker.

He's 85. The initial stroke was terrifying, but now I'm having to face a very real possibility that we'll be losing him a piece at a time over the next few months to years.

I'm not at the ER with my aunt and grandmother because I'm newly recovering from illness myself, as well as being someone that freaks out at hospitals. Instead, I'm home alone and trying not to freak out at this line of thought.

I just turned 40 last weekend, so having my grandparents still around is a blessing. I'm just not ready to look at the possibility of not having either of them anymore.

Thanks for 'listening,' all.

ElTerprise: I see - well not surprised about you not actively sale watching though. Hm... i think of it as something like [url=https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Largest_artificial_non-nuclear_explosions#/media/File:Destruction_of_HMS_Queen_Mary.jpg]that[/url] or [url=https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battle_of_the_Falkland_Islands#/media/File:Cfbattlepainting_(Retouched).jpg]that[/url] to stay in the naval image...
(the first image is the detonation of the HMS Queen Mary during the Battle of Jutland and second is the sinking of the SMS Scharnhorst during the Battle of the Falkland Islands (both in World War I )

penumbren: (...)

penumbren: Just had to stop in to let off some stress. What follows is sort of long and personal.

Some of you know that my grandparents raised me; my grandfather had a stroke last November. It was pretty severe, but he recovered almost completely - up into the 90+ percent, which is amazing. He even got his driver's license back this Tuesday. He's still pretty easily fatigued and weaker on his right side.

Today, he went outside to start the riding lawn mower and pick up pine cones and such off the lawn before mowing. After he'd been outside for about ten minutes without hearing anything, my aunt went out check on him and found him sitting at the bench in the shop, unable to stand up. Apparently, the lawn mower had a flat tire that he wanted to inflate with the air compressor, but came over weak. He had almost no voice at all. When I went out a few minutes later, it looked like possible heat stroke/over-exertion - pale, sweaty, etc. - but when we called 911 because we couldn't move him, he ended up with a super-low blood pressure of 74/42, so went to hospital. Right now, doctors are testing to see if he had another stroke and they're looking at the possibility that he may need a pacemaker.

He's 85. The initial stroke was terrifying, but now I'm having to face a very real possibility that we'll be losing him a piece at a time over the next few months to years.

I'm not at the ER with my aunt and grandmother because I'm newly recovering from illness myself, as well as being someone that freaks out at hospitals. Instead, I'm home alone and trying not to freak out at this line of thought.

I just turned 40 last weekend, so having my grandparents still around is a blessing. I'm just not ready to look at the possibility of not having either of them anymore.

Thanks for 'listening,' all.

CarrionCrow: Right now, your level of intelligence and knowledge is going right over my head.
I don't say that to try to be some kind of smartass, I'm saying it so you don't waste your abilities on someone too brainfucked at the moment to process all of it.

Empress_Owl: Hey Penumbren.... I hope your grandfather will recover... :-(
I do'nt have any grandparents anymore, I know what you mean... hang on...
**big hugs**

CarrionCrow: He might be 85, but he's got to be strong to come back from a stroke to that degree. He could come back from whatever's required to get a pacemaker put in just as well.

EndreWhiteMane: Sorry you're having to go through all of that, life can really stink sometimes.
I'll keep hoping that things turn out for the best and you get to keep your grand parents for a very long time yet.
Don't worry about the pacemaker stuff, it's very common in older people, helps a lot and is a pretty simple procedure these days.
All fingers and toes crossed.

ElTerprise: Oh i'm sorry.... i really got myself into reading more about World War I recently as distraction (yes i know that sounds odd) but that's the reason i had that stuff in mind :)

penumbren: We've told him he's a stubborn old bastard. :) I'm mostly worried about the possibility of this having been another stroke; my grandmother's mother died from stroke, after a series of them over several years, and it was just painful to watch her go from a lively, vivacious woman to someone who couldn't communicate and had given up on even trying.

CarrionCrow: No need to apologize. I read a biography on Hitler something like 3 dozen times when I was in the fourth grade. I've got you beat on weird shit.

ElTerprise: Alright. Think i'm going to sleep now....i'm pretty tired. Wish you all a good night *big good night hugs and waves*
See you all later :)

ElTerprise: Whoa...yep you definitely beat me on that :)

ElTerprise: Alright. Think i'm going to sleep now....i'm pretty tired. Wish you all a good night *big good night hugs and waves*
See you all later :)

akhliber: I'm sorry to hear things are so difficult right now. I'm just shy of 39 myself, and slowly-becoming-quickly losing my maternal grandmother to dementia. She's the last grandparent I have left, and the thought of losing her completely is something I'm just not ready for. I pretty much modeled myself after her husband, my grandfather, and losing him to cancer was one of the most difficult losses I've experienced. I hope things improve and that you get to keep your grandfather in your life for a long time to come. You're in my thoughts!

CarrionCrow: The medical personnel will keep track of that possibility, do whatever they can to combat it and reduce or eliminate the chance of it happening.

ElTerprise: Alright. Think i'm going to sleep now....i'm pretty tired. Wish you all a good night *big good night hugs and waves*
See you all later :)