Aloha all. Hi Tarnicus, good to 'see' you again.

Probably a combo. It's actually hot outside with swarms of bugs, so that would account for the first two. The stomach ache was probably nerves. I don't socialize much.

Alright. I dangerously close to falling asleep on my keyboard. Think i'm going to sleep now. Good Night everyone!


That sucks. And 6 beers for Euros being the cheaspest is ridiculous. A usual price would be around 3,50-4€ for better one but also only 330ml...

Good evening. =)

How's your weekend been going?
Goodnight, sleep well. =)

It was the stomach thing combined with "be sociable" that had me guess that. Stomach and anxiety go hand in hand. Peppermint and freshly grated ginger steeped in hot water can do wonder for that, or something like Valerian root (not the pills, the actual root) is a decent axiolytic.

Given it is winter here and has been snowing of late, I didn't even consider "hot outside with swarms of bugs" lol.

Want to trade weather? I've been sweating for four months solid, and it's starting to get ever so slightly uncomfortable. I'll gladly give you this lovely heat in exchange for cold and some snow.

Heya EndreWhiteMane, how's "things" (whatever those things may be)?

Yeah I needed a time off to go through my inner rage until I found rock bottom. Life is a funny thing. Just when I think I've found what I'm looking for, I lose it so I can take a good look at myself and figure out why I haven't learned some of the lessons I thought I had. Life is a harsh teacher but I don't seem to listen to subtle lessons.
I'd trade it in an instant! I'm getting cabin fever. I am living by myself for the first time in 39 years, and it is quite the learning experience. Normally I combat solitude with socialising (my town is isolated from my friends and I don't drive) and getting out into nature. I thought I was adapted to the cold until I moved here, and the change from Autumn to Winter was a harsh one, and I've been told that this is the coldest winter here in memory for many of the locals.

I'm looking forward to getting my fitness up and getting back to foraging, bushcraft, full contact sparring (when healthier if I can) and some parkour in the woods. I am far from that state of health now but have gotten back into consuming nutrient dense foods which has helped my recent depression a lot.

To put it in perspective - I have 1 room in the house(3 bedroom with just me and 3 cats) that I can inhabit. When I got to the kitchen, it is colder in there than in the fridge most of the time!

Your space sounds similar to mine, only somewhat colder.

At least you have different things to do, plans, things you want to get back to and accomplish. That's good. Hopefully the weather will start easing up before it freezes you to the floor.

I'm slowly emerging from the shock of suicidal depression. I'm honestly surprised that I'm still here but am on the mend now. One moment at a time. Only in the past few days have I started to get into a healthier routine and begin to think "what do I want in life and what can I do about it?"

Oh and re the 3 bedroom house...all 3 bedrooms are empty. I moved my bed to the lounge room because I can have fire in there and keep warm lol

Been there, done that. But then I came to the conclusion that I will not let my backlog live longer than I do. -laughs-

Makes sense. I've known people who ended up doing the same thing due to fuel costs being so high they couldn't realistically afford to heat the entire house all winter.

The lack of heating the house has to do with the design of it; it has "natural air-conditioning" meaning gaps everywhere for cold air to come in. It should be handy in summer. I've got one electric oil heater but those are really expensive to run. Wood is half the price in this town (the main industry is logging) compared to where I last lived, and I go to the golf course nearby to gather it myself. I've got a tentative plan to build some kind of rickshaw so I can start bringing back larger logs myself to reduce the cost. I'm still adapting to paying for this house alone and money is very tight with all my savings gone now.

Funnily enough in this period of solitude, I am getting a very strong desire to lose myself in computer games again, partly to inspire me to get back to writing and get my crap complete and published. I don't think it would be physically possible for me to complete my collection before my time is up, but I'm going to get a few games complete! I cannot remember the last time that I finished a RPG or turn-based strategy game. The plan is to start small in order to say "I finished that!"

Not feeling the greatest today but that's not unusual.
Learning about mods on Morrowind, that's kinda fun.
Your day OK so far?
Things are OK here, glad yours are getting better. (other than the weather)

It always gets better until it gets worse :P

Ooh Morrowind mods. You've got endless fun and exploration there :) It's been years since I've played and modded that game, so long that I cannot even remember what I used to use.

Funny thing about life. So often it goes on longer than you'd expect it to.

You already have the right idea. Start small, shift back into it gradually, no pressure, actually enjoy things. The more you enjoy them, the more interest you'll have in completing them.
Sorry to hear that. Hopefully it changes up so the rest of your weekend doesn't have a crappy component to it.

Can't complain here. Just made salad for people, now I'm back in my space.
Course, I'll be leaving it momentarily since me chainsmoking in the house is frowned upon when someone's crotchspawn is in the residence.
On the upside, if I smoke outside, I'm not laying the very, very early framework for some damned kid bugging me for cigarettes in roughly 20 years.

Hah doesn't it? I didn't think I'd make it to 20 and somehow I hit 39 recently. Starting small is how I started challenging the depression I was feeling. There's only so much daytime TV one can watch before thinking "Okay I'm not enjoying life, but watching this rubbish isn't making it better!" lol So I started by getting up to do a little thing here and there in the ad breaks, and focused on cleaning my space, cleaning my innards with nutrition and finally having a wash. Since that day a week ago, I've made half a litre of fruit and vege juice every day and am cooking nutritious meals again (for one which is an adjustment in itself as I still cook far more of each meal than I need).

Great point re smoking. It is generally too cold for me to smoke outside here and fortunately my cats won't bug me for smokes and they get plenty of fresh air (and I air the room out constantly). My (wow typed "our" out of habit there) neighbour has a couple of gorgeous kittens who are underfed, so they come in and steal my cat's food. They are so darn cute that they managed to bring a smile to my face when I was really depressed. Feeding the birds each day helps too. The little things, the small steps, are definitely the key.