Good morning, lovely people of Fred!
So, some good news to share with you lovely people, sorry if I end up rambling on for too long. So because I think I talked too much, the short version is that me and my partner are hoping to start trying for a baby, which I am over the moon about.
I originally was hesitant to share it, but after a lovely talk with Owl she said I should just be more open and share. I mentioned a little while ago about some tests and appointments that were not related to my health, what they were related to was me and my partner looking into
I.V.F., as we are hoping to start a family of our own. As some of you know I can't have children anymore due to me been attacked, and what made that even more horrible was that I was three months pregnant at the time and lost my baby due to the attack. So due to all that and some other unfortunate family things which happened shortly afterwards we put things on hold for a while. Last year we decided to try again, but obviously this time with my partner having the baby instead of me, but then I got very ill so we had to put it on hold again. But now that things seem to be looking up, and with life too precious to waste waiting around, we decided to go ahead with the plans this year of trying for a little baby of our own, which I can't tell you how happy and excited I am about that.
I have had a huge smile on my face ever since we got the okay about it all. The whole thing will not start until a few months time, we wanted to be able to just spend the summer enjoying some lovely time together before we start it all. Sadly IVF and pregnancy in general are not sure things, and with a few other things that could effect the outcome, me and my partner are both aware that this could be a very hard path for us as the worse case scenario may happen a few times before lady luck decides to play nice. But it will be worth it in the long run, but we know that it could be a heartbreaking journey at points and that it could take a long time, which was the main reason why I was unsure about sharing it all.
Apart from the hardships I mentioned above the only other bad part of it all is the cost, as IVF is very expensive, and on top of that me and my partner are also saving for a lovely project we have been planning for sometime now that is also on the expensive side. So sadly my gifting days will have to take a rest for a while, as I spend far too much on gifts as it is (on here and in the real world), which normally is fine, but at the moment that money is better used elsewhere, so sadly I will have to sit out all the lovely gifting sprees and sales. I will still get gifts for peoples' birthdays and things, and maybe a few sneaky gifts now and then, but I won't be able to gift like I used to. Sorry about that :-(. I am going to miss being able to gift you lovely people. But it will be very much worth it in the end, and I will have a lot more to focus on then not being able to feed my gifting addiction. :-)
So there it is, my long and possibly boring ramblings about my good news. Sorry for going on for so long, I ended up rambling a lot more in the first version but I decided I had better cut some of it out. But anyway, that is all, back to business as usual on the thread of Fred. :-)
*Monday hugs and waves*
Also, sorry to anyone I did not reply to on chat last week. My chat was not working before I left for the weekend. I meant to mention this in my last post.